I’ve been thinking lately if I have associated myself with too much orgs. Originally, I applied for 5 organizations. Insane as it may seem, I did it because 3 of those required application process and interview, therefore, it’s not a sure in. Apparently, my immitating Toni Gonzaga and singing James Morrison songs got me into CSO (Council of Student Organizations), the scary and nervewracking interview with Kuya Mac got me into SAM (Student Artist’s Managers) and my singing of You Belong with Me in front of other writers got me into TLS (The Lasallian). AIESEC, I haven’t been active and Outdoor Club, I haven’t attended an activity asides the GA.

I thought to myself, “3 active orgs? Okay lang yun. Pambawi because I didn’t have any orgs during my first year.”

Now, I’m not so sure. A part of me wants to keep all my orgs because I’ve invested so much in all three in terms of work, friends and most especially, time (residency). Also, I want to prove to myself that I can juggle them together with my 4 majors this term. It’s like a death note, I tell you. Instead of just worrying about my papers and exams, I also think about my unaccomplished residency hours (3hrs per week per org), ushering quota, evaluation of bulletin boards, deadline of articles and more.

That’s why it bothered me so much when one time, while I was signing out from SAM to go to TLS, Kuya Owen said, “May iddrop kang org eventually.” :-<

Just the thought of having to drop one of my orgs sends resentment down my system. But the thought of classifying my orgs in the same level as my academics disappoints myself. When I told my parents about my acceptances during the first part of the terms, along with their hugs and congratulations was “We just hope it doesn’t collide with your studies. Academics first. Always.”

I hope I don’t disappoint my parents. That’s my only concern. Honestly, I do all these for them, to make them feel I’m achieving something and to eventually, make them proud. But I don’t think missing weekends with them and even with my friends is exactly the path they want me to take now. :(