August 20, 2011
Dear friend,
It’s been a long time, ha. I’ve been through a lot this past weeks. Some fascinating stuff happened and some are actually bad. Thinking that ‘bad’ is kindof an understatement. It was devastating.
The midterm examinations already ended and I think I did good. Average. I think I passed it all except one exceptional subject with exceptional professor. I’m not great with every subject at school but I always study important things. So I think the first half of the semester is a good shot for me.
On the bad side of everything, I messed up. It’s simply about everything. My future, my life, my family. I don’t know what will happen next. I just know I’m ready for the possibilities of unfortunate events each day. Who knows, right? It’s really weakening. The thought of what damage have I possibly done to my future. I jeopardized everything I worked hard for. I don’t know. I’m scared. But I can’t go on with my life being scared each day so I always try to be strong. I just hope that everything’s gonna be fine. I just hope that one day I will not regret things that I’ve done.Because regretting is the last act I would love to do in life.
What else do I want to talk about? My attention-span. Me and my friend, Ate Rosie, talked about how long we can focus on things and I realized that I really have a very short attention-span. Some said because of the television. Growing up spending most of my time in front of the tv, we have to realize how much our attention focuses on different things because of tv commercials and other sorts of stuff. But another point I can imply with this is because of the internet. Damn you, Innerrnet! Because of the tabs I open and just lose my attention with each one. I can barely start reading a text with each tab. That sucks. And that leads to how much time I spend reading novels. Sigh.
I already finished reading The Hunger Games Trilogy. I am a fan of the first book. A believer of the second one. And one of those who despise Suzanne Collins for writing a loosely plot third and final book. The third book bore the hell out of me! It’s so different with the first two. The romance is so annoying yet it felt like nothing. The actions are gruesomely not breathtaking. I don’t know what happened to that book. Good thing Jona warned me about this. I and Suzanne Collins will talk about the revision of the ending. Haha
Hmm. Friend. I hope you’re really a friend. I hope you really do respect me as well as know the depth of my being. I hope you will not turn your back on me when everybody else do. I’m really scared of being judge by one piece of junk of my poor decisions in life. Oh, I hate to think about it.
At the end of the day. It’s still school that bugs me out. I hate school! I hate going to school! There’s one book I read before about the demands of life and how school interferes with it. Just the fact of going to school and sitting with your ass for hours is just infuriating. And the projects, don’t get me started. I hate the projects during college. I hate group work. I despise it!
Maybe this just needs to end here before I start cursing every person and names I could call out. Bottom line is we don’t know what may come tomorrow. Or by next week. Or for the next two years. We just better live life as if it’s our last day.
Love always,
Paolo