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Best you’re dumb af! haha Phobia… I’m really scared of not finishing this Nursing program, letting my family down, all my friends, all my coworkers, people who have supported me and believed in me, in that I will make a great nurse… Letting them down. Letting myself down. And letting the people who talked shit win.
There have been more than a handful of times that I’ve questioned this path… Of of the most memorable ones was leaving Hawai’i in 2013 flying back to San Diego… I was deep asleep on the flight home… I fell asleep knowing that I has submitted my application to many nursing programs before I even left on this trip… Going back to the mainland meant that I had to face reality and figure it all out. If I got in or not, life still will go on… And if I even was good enough to make the cut… K BACK TO IT! I fell asleep, woke up to the captain calling “Any medical personnel please make your way to the front of the plane please.” I got up and without hesitation went to see what it was about. Ended up it was an auntie who was having chest pain. I’ve worked in the Emergency Department for a total of 7 years combined in 2 of the largest emergency departments in southern California and I’ve been around my share of chest pain. So Initially I started to critically think about it, and see what we had available if this patient did end up coding and I would need to do compressions or even shock the patient… All they had was an AED, a blood pressure cuff, some Advil, and oxygen… -___-, I worked her up knowing that we would hopefully land in about 2 hours and that if we kept her calm and concentrated it would be an easier situation to work up. So after further assessment she had taken narcotic pain medication on an empty stomach with 2 alcoholic beverages… DONT EVEN DO THAT… She was fine but still complained of chest pain, I suggested that she at least seek medical treatment and at least get a EKG to just put her mind at ease when we landed… This honestly turned out to be such a blessing in disguise and I really do want this more than anything… It’s not about the money (yeah it’s a plus) but what I do will actually mean something… The fear of failing at this and not having that chance again is my worst fear…
Damn hella #rant #blog status up in here cheeehuuuu.
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