i’ve become a church cryer 

almost every service now 

today it was as soon as i walked in

seeing my entire family standing side by side in the pew for the first time in a year 

thinking it may be the last

overwhelmingly happy and sad

my dad was diagnosed 8 months ago with stage 4 lung cancer

he can’t sit through church because of the overwhelming pain

today was the first time he tried and had to leave before the sermon was finished

but i am so happy he tried