Nathan’s family scares me. Because I really am starting to like them. Ally’s a lot like me and Aunt Kathy reminds me of Wendy and Matt actually talks to me like I’m a person and not just Nathan’s girlfriend who occasionally needs to be included to be polite. I don’t know how to go away with Nathan, that’s such a large thing. And I don’t know how to be excited and still apply for study abroad. I don’t want him to stop loving me and I don’t know. I’m being irrational but I can’t seem to stop.