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Wow I have a big dumb crush.
Wow spending time with my mother and sister together is exhausting.
Wow this is some pretty intense stuff, but I’m guessing it is the same person sending these messages, I’m not entirely sure who it is exactly.
I guess I’ll try and break this down in a way that makes sense because there are a lot of layers.
Firstly I mean yeah, I have experienced a bunch of trauma throughout my life, and I definitely deal with a lot of it on a daily basis. Earthquakes, my mother often being incredibly unwell, the whole situation relating to my sister and nephew and their general well being, and a little bit of bastardly father thrown in as well. No doubt, it’s a bunch of stuff to deal with, some of which is ongoing and I have basically no control over (my mothers health, earthquakes, the actions of other members of my family).
I’ve also taken some grueling and deeply unpleasant, however necessary steps in dealing with the above trauma, most notably a number of counselling appointments at the start of this year, which have helped a lot. Also nearly a years worth of treatment and medication for ongoing depression.
I guess what I’m saying is I resent the implication I am not attempting to “focus on my own stuff”, because I do, on a daily basis, try to live a life which is happier and healthier, and lately I’ve been more successful.
As to how this relates to my relationships, I am not super proud of how I dealt with my romantic relationships in 2016, I was really unwell, and that is no excuse for the stress I placed on people. But it was never purposeful. Thankfully I was wise enough to end one relationship, and the other was ended by the other person who was clearly not getting what they needed from me in the relationship. Fortunately both parties have agency in deciding whether or not a relationship continues. I try my best to maintain that these relationships I enter into are not the only source of happiness in my life. For the most part I have succeeded, though relationships ending sucks, and I’m not happy about it, it is never the end of the world.
I will continue to seek out romantic and platonic relationships, in balance with a range of other fun and engaging experiences I seek to fill my spare time. I don’t feel that being mentally ill and often struggling with past trauma should exclude me from that if I am careful, and honest with other peoples emotional well being, which I do strive to be.
I am genuinely sorry if I have hurt you or someone you care about in the past with my emotional carelessness.
Finally if you have any criteria as to when I will be well enough by your standards to date people again you can contact me on the innumerable channels I am fairly open about operating in the social media sphere. You anonymous weirdo.
i hate when people are like WOW YOU CANT LIKE EQUIUS HE’S SUCH AN ASSHOLE AND A DISGUSTING CREEP!!!!!!
because did you ever think that someone might actually find that fucking hot in a fictional character because i know i do
just because someone isnt your cup of tea doesnt mean no one else can like them
STOP THE FUCKING PRESS ETHAN
So what you’re saying is.
PEOPLE LIKE DIFFERENT THINGS?
AND PEOPLE STILL AREN’T AWARE OF THIS?
FUCK
JESUS
WE MUST TELL SOMEONE.
NOTIFY THE POLICE
You’re the best, I’m sad I only saw you briefly when I was in New Zealand.
Wow, thanks, someone at the flat said you were back in New Zealand for good? I guess not. When are you back next?
‘Queer Muslims’
DO NOT EXSIST LMAO
Bitch please
You don’t exist
Wow 1.6 billion of us in the world and all are straight