It’s quite dangerous to base so much of your life on being better.  There is no summit and if you slip, you’ll fall right into inadequacy.  You’re in danger of believing that everything and everybody around you isn’t good enough.  And when I sit down and think about it, this is what I’m truly scared of…that my way of life has become dysfunctional to the point that I’ve to pushed away all my girlfriends, all my good friends, all my acquaintances and all the things that bring me joy because I’m in search of something more.  I’m scared that on my pursuit of betterness, I’ll forget how to be happy.