what the fuck is even this
okay i will
i will stay up all night
with no pant bottoms or underwear on
in bed
on my stomach with half an earphone in .
i didn’t finish what i started listening to,
i never do.
think of you.
and then think of another you.
and then i think of the window into nowhere land
for a million strangers to read me
for 1 stranger to get bored at another text.
for me to be sick of this stupid fucking website
and this stupid fucking computer
and my stupid fucking job
and the stupid fucking frequency
that i resonate.
it’s my fault.
i made the choice a long time ago to be here.
i take out the headphone.
i see my delusions.
but, oh how delusions keep us going forever
since the start.
and how they will continue
to run
like a program that won
a freight train of now.
Feel that, that
is existence. It’s vulnerable
and can be gone in an instance, folly .
ear wax drips from my ear(s).