Posted 11 years ago
30 Day Challenge - Day 10
Day 10 - Discuss your first love and first kiss.
Let’s see… My first love and my first kiss were two different people even though I dated both. My very first boyfriend, when I was 14, he and I never really kissed beyond a peck here and there. I don’t remember a “first kiss” moment with him because there was none.
My first love was probably my last high school boyfriend. Before we dated, we had been best friends, but he liked me long before I was aware of it. I guess I had technically “friend-zoned” him but I was truly oblivious. He dated a lot more than I did, and the only reason he finally told me how he felt was because he was high on pain killers from a recent surgery. I really didn’t care about him the way he did me at first, but he was my best friend and his loyalty and how much he cared about me was really touching. So I thought maybe if I dated him, I would eventually fall in love with him. I didn’t, and we eventually broke up with me mostly feeling guilty that I wasn’t able to reciprocate how he felt. We remained friends, though. And then at some point, I did fall in love with him but he was dating someone, and then a few others in quick succession so I never got the guts to butt in. But then he went through a single stretch, and he and I got back together somehow. I don’t know how long we dated, but I do remember that I genuinely loved him very much. He broke up with me in the summer before our senior year, and it took me a long time to get over.
He was not my first kiss though; my first kiss was a guy I ended up dating for approximately one week. I think he had liked me for awhile beforehand, but he’d never made that clear to me. His treatment of me was pretty confusing in how bipolar it was before, during, and after the relationship… But we were at the drive-in, and he pulled a slick maneuver where I was cold and he offered to put his arm around me to warm me up. Then somehow we were kissing. I had no idea what I was doing with my mouth, but I think I did a good job of pretending like I did. I think he was two years older than me or something, so he knew what he was doing and that made it easier for me to get the gist.
For things that are supposed to be milestones, I remember them very apathetically. Can’t tell if good or bad.