Everything I Bought and How It Made Me Feel

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and then they hit me
Item: Bills (Phone)
Cost: £37.93
Needs: 30% Safety, 30% Love/belonging, 20% Esteem, 20% Self-actualisation
Affect: Awful / -9
Notes
shit shit shit / a half dozen phone calls over my minutes and they hit me with this / no warning...

and then they hit me 
Item: Bills (Phone)  
Cost: £37.93 
Needs: 30% Safety, 30% Love/belonging, 20% Esteem, 20% Self-actualisation 
Affect: Awful / -9 

Notes 
shit shit shit / a half dozen phone calls over my minutes and they hit me with this / no warning / and i didn’t notice didn’t check / it’s my fault / it’s their fault / this racket appalls me / i want to get out / this month i finally looked into it / they soothed me / by november i can switch to a sim only contract / i just have to tough it out til then / snake oil words from the sales rep / and then they hit me with this / i know it’s my fault but i want to blame them more / i should blame them more / they’re con artists / the whole pack / i want to get out get away but i don’t know if i can / christ i feel like these people own me