So I’m writing my own story about a hero who [thats none of your damn business] and then his mom is murdered halfway through. I figured its always in the begining of the story when someone loses a family member or a lover, but rarely ever the middle. Two exceptions include Batman(Jason Todd) and Spiderman(Gwen Stacy).

So I wrote the scene where the mom is murdered and I felt some kinda way about it. I was holding in emotions and letting my hero experience them and struggle through it. Later on I wrote in his happy ending.

Sometime afterwards I reconsidered my ending and how light it all got. The reality of losing someone close to him was missing. You never brush off someones death so easily, its traumatic… isn't it? So I wrote another ending where the hero wins, but he has a moment that causes him to do something regrettable that lands him in prison.

After writing that ending I had an even bigger swell of emotion. I realized I connected with my hero because he was becoming more and more incredibly fleshed out and believable which allowed me to really empathize with him.

I say all of this to say, maybe this is what God(if you believe in him) must feel like? Maybe he does truly feel your pain. And as often as he must cause it, he desperately wants to end it.