I feel like such a wuss right now. I’m at work while this is all going on and I feel like shit. I want to go home and scream into my pillow. I feel like crying my eyes out but I refuse to do it. I truly thought things would be different with this girl and yet again, I was wrong. Why do I constantly put myself in these situations? Why am I the hopeless romantic idiot that goes above and beyond to make a girl happy only to get nothing near it in return? Why do I even bother? Why do I even believe in love or want to be anymore? Its all a fucking joke.