This semester is truly different
Throughout high school I’ve had my years of absolute ups and absolute downs but during those ups when I had the intrinsic motivation to do my best, I was not as determined and was not striving as hard as I am now. I’m actually really trying and going beyond what I know will get me an A. I’m studying extra not to be confident in my grades but because I’m actually enjoying this new me and learning this new material. I love this feeling of being busy and organizing constantly and consistently to be productive as possible. If I’m not sleeping or eating, I’m at school or work or studying or organizing/planning for the events of the next day. If on the off chance I’m not doing any of those things, I’m spending a couple hours with my boyfriend. Even at work if its for some reason slow, I’m reading out of my textbook.
Even the exhaustion after an 11 hour work shift or spending 11 hours on campus feels good because I know that I’m no longer laying around doing the minimal amount of work. I really want to succeed. People say this all the time and end up falling back to old habits but for the first time I’m enjoying every step of the way out of this hole I dug myself into. I’m confident that I won’t be making any more holes and falling into them like I have in the past. Lame analogy huh?
Time for class!
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