In the horrible middle ground where i just cant cry. For some reason my tears have dried up and a small part of me thinks its cause im running out.

A beautiful day ended badly. I was given so much and for fear of upsetting people i upset everyone.

I ache inside. Inner termoil all the tiny fragment of stress churning and grinding away at my emotions

Im not mad that im stressed just simply dissapointed that im sad again

Who am i kidding im furious im sad all the time.

I speak too soon and oberall feel im a crappy person cause i regret so much.

Held at a stand still through fear. The fraud in me accepted the foolishness.

God be in my heart and mind. Help me to be ok. Amen