Always like this

Its been a while since ive written anything substantial but its not because i dont have anything to say its just when its time to sit and write about how i feel, i draw a blank. Big things have happened to me lately, some good and some bad, but i honestly have no idea how i feel. Do you know how frustrating it is? I mean come on, give me something! Happy? Sad? Angry? Those are things i can identify, i can deal with, but this? This lack of interest? Lack of emotion? It kills me. It feels like ive gone so long without feeling anything, if someone were to cut me open, they wouldnt find anything inside. I wonder sometimes if everybody goes through this, IS going through this. Does anybody else feel nothing? Not an overly dramatic “feeling nothing” but truly and honestly nothing. It scares me, really it does. I feel like im broken, like theres something wrong with me. I remember the days when i had a million things to talk about and smiled all the time and always saw the good in life. I know people go through phases like this but its like, what if i never get that feeling back? What if for the rest of my life i feel like this, what if for the rest of my life i feel nothing? Sometimes, i just want to feel something. Its like im living but im not really alive.