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PANK Magazine :: 9.10 / OCTOBER 2014 QUEER ISSUE :: Phoenix by B. Almeida

“Thinking gives off smoke to prove the existence of fire. A mystic sits inside the burning. There are wonderful shapes in rising smoke that imagination loves to watch. But it’s a mistake to leave the fire for that filmy sight. Stay here at the flame’s core.”
                                                                                        -Rumi

Confusion.

Confusion up till college.
Unsure. Shortly after meeting Gheri, a junior, she takes you to a house party, mixes you some 151 and coke. Later, she’ll climb into your lap too shitfaced to stand (while you’re too shitfaced to push her away) and lap dance her way into making out. It has the surrounding nerds stupefied, making the gossip rounds, but nobody gives you shit for it. Friendship spring quarter with a self-proclaimed “dyke” shows you just how out of your league you are. Maybe you’re just some try-sexual loser, who wants to make out with girls at parties for guy-attention.



Confusion in high school,
when you figure out boys equal as much adrenaline as girls, but half as much nervous
energy. Half as much work. When you figure out being black is bad enough, that liking girls would take it too far. High school produces an ethnic circle you are as a part of as you are excluded from. Within this tiny group of flies in the milk, you are beyond an anomaly. A dung beetle. Bisexual is un-acceptable. You’ll overhear a junior in the locker rooms balking about “lesbos”: “Like, can you imagine? In here, watching us undress and like…oh my god. Just like, gross.”

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