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Raindrops' Story

@ditalova / ditalova.tumblr.com

known otherwise as dancingfingers on FFN and yibyul on other sites - intp - female - multi fandom
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INTP Confession #140

I have so many words in my vocabulary that I seem to forget words more often than anyone else I know. Simple words, or complex ones, like my expansive library of words has become too great for my mind to hold and words keep slipping through the cracks. I remember the word I want to use, and I remember what it means, but I cannot for the life of me remember the word. Similarly, sometimes I use a word without truly remembering what it means, but I’m sure it fits its context.

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INTP Confession #163

I’m an intp, yet I’m not that very great at all. I have ADHD, depression and possibly a mild case of schizophrenia and I spend most of the day detached from the “real world”. Oh yeah, and I hate science, for I cannot concentrate on anything that doesn’t stimulate me enough. Yeah I’m smart, sure, but it pretty much all goes to waste. So, honestly, fuck all type stereotypes. Some INTP traits are true for me, some are not. It’s like that for everyone. You form your type, it’s not your type that forms you. If you’re having thoughts, like “uhh I’m not like my type enough even though I took the test like 10 times and got the same results,” this is your call. You don’t have to match a label a 100% to be valid.

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INTP Confession #176

I tick almost every box as an INTP, but deep down, I’m extremely good at analyzing people, and every time someone tries to offend me, in my mind, I’m able to think of harsh insults that can really hurt them, but most of the time I just keep to myself. If I ever really do get into a verbal fight with someone, I know exactly where to hit and will show no mercy. I was just wondering if any of you guys do this as well?

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INTP Confession #191

I’m lost. I advise others that you’re not suppose to be certain of life, yet I also want to be certain of life too. I don’t know what interests me anymore… I still write but… my words are so melancholy and they’re hanging around stars that hadn’t known how to make the sky glow again. I feel nothing… but I’m still really sensitive when I’m a nihilistic mess who wants nothing but to work out systems, yet such systems I can’t define at all. I ask how followed by a bunch of how’s. Why.

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Re: INTP Confession #192

It sucks to see this since I was once that friend and I’m an INTP like you.

I was in a toxic relationship where my partner kept stealing, oops, I mean, borrowing things from me. It’s not like I didn’t try to stop it; my partner would return things at first, but eventually returned things less and less, until things stopped returning completely.

He was good at making excuses and I really liked him, so I wanted so hard to believe that he would eventually return everything, but of course that wouldn’t happen.

Friends tried to get me to leave this relationship before I could lose anything more, and deep down inside I knew my friends were probably right, but the other side of me wanted to stay with him, wanting so hard to believe that he was a trustworthy person, that his excuses were real, that he would eventually return everything.

I couldn’t stay with him, but I couldn’t lose my valuables, so I ended up staying with him and getting mentally torn apart wondering about whether or not he would keep his promises and return everything, until he took something too valuable and left me instead.

Now I look back at that toxic relationship wondering what was I even thinking, yet at the same time, I know exactly what I was thinking. I guess I was just too naive and hopeful.

I can’t imagine how it must have been like for my friends to watch me get hurt from the sidelines, not being able to do much to help it. I’m sure they thought I was stupid and illogical too, but toxic relationships can really do some psychological damage…

I’m just so sorry that you had to experience what my friends experienced with me, but like ENFP Confession #115 says, sometimes victims “keep seeing how good someone could be instead of how bad they actually are.”

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INTP Confession #203

There’s really only two people I actually communicate with. I’m a little disappointed because even with them they don’t know so much, and I can’t and don’t want to tell them and never will. So, despite their presence - there’s this unrelenting sensation of being lonesome. Not necessarily feeling lonely, just this ceaseless reality of being apart from them - them being everyone. There’s an ocean between me and them, and reality. It’s all solely me, I know that. People have made attempts, and I’ve seen them. I’m always polite and return them shallowly, but there’s never any substance to it. There’s only this very, very quiet ache. Sometimes I think of it as interest, but other times I think of it as this heavily subdued throbbing. I almost wonder about returning them fully. I almost want too. It’s almost there, every time. But it’s never enough, never enough for me to exhume myself from whatever lonesome grave I’ve buried myself in. I never feel pain like I do when I think about this. It’s something akin to grief - for myself(I don’t like this thought). Almost.

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Words to describe someone's voice

adenoidal: if someone’s voice is adenoidal, some of the sound seems to come through their nose
appealing: an appealing look, voice etc shows that you want help, approval, or agreement
breathy: with loud breathing noises
brittle: if you speak in a brittle voice, you sound as if you are about to cry
croaky: if someone’s voice sounds croaky, they speak in a low rough voice that sounds as if they have a sore throat
dead: if someone’s eyes are dead, or if their voice is dead, they feel or show no emotion
disembodied: a disembodied voice comes from someone who you cannot see
flat: spoken in a voice that does not go up and down. This word is often used for describing the speech of people from a particular region.
fruity: a fruity voice or laugh is deep and strong in a pleasant way
grating: a grating voice, laugh, or sound is unpleasant and annoying
gravelly: a gravelly voice sounds low and rough
gruff: a gruff voice has a rough low sound
guttural: a guttural sound is deep and made at the back of your throat
high-pitched: a high-pitched voice or sound is very high
hoarse: someone who is hoarse or has a hoarse voice speaks in a low rough voice, usually because their throat is sore
honeyed: honeyed words or a honeyed voice sound very nice but you cannot trust the person who is speaking
husky: a husky voice is deep and sounds hoarse (=as if you have a sore throat), often in an attractive way
low adjective: a low voice or sound is quiet and difficult to hear
low adverb: in a deep voice, or with a deep sound
matter-of-fact: used about someone’s behaviour or voice
modulated: a modulated voice is controlled and pleasant to listen to
monotonous: a monotonous sound or voice is boring and unpleasant because it does not change in loudness or become higher or lower
nasal: someone with a nasal voice sounds as if they are speaking through their nose
orotund: an orotund voice is loud and clear
penetrating: a penetrating voice or sound is so high or loud that it makes you slightly uncomfortable
plummy: a plummy voice or way of speaking is considered to be typical of an English person of a high social class. This word shows that you dislike people who speak like this.
quietly: in a quiet voice
raucous: a raucous voice or noise is loud and sounds rough
ringing: a ringing sound or voice is very loud and clear
rough: a rough voice is not soft and is unpleasant to listen to
shrill: a shrill noise or voice is very loud, high, and unpleasant
silvery: a silvery voice or sound is clear, light, and pleasant
singsong: if you speak in a singsong voice, your voice rises and falls in a musical way
small: a small voice or sound is quiet
smoky: a smoky voice or smoky eyes are sexually attractive in a slightly mysterious way
softly spoken: someone who is softly spoken has a quiet gentle voice
sotto voce adjective, adverb: in a very quiet voice
stentorian: a stentorian voice sounds very loud and severe
strangled: a strangled sound is one that someone stops before they finish making it
strangulated: strangled
strident: a strident voice or sound is loud and unpleasant
taut: used about something such as a voice or expression that shows someone is nervous or angry
thick: if your voice is thick with an emotion, it sounds less clear than usual because of the emotion
thickly: with a low voice that comes mostly from your throat
thin: a thin voice or sound is high and unpleasant to listen to
throaty: a throaty sound is low and seems to come from deep in your throat
tight: a tight voice or expression shows that you are nervous or annoyed
toneless: a toneless voice does not express any emotion
tremulous: if something such as your voice or smile is tremulous, it is not steady, for example because you are afraid or excited
wheezy: a wheezy noise sounds as if it is made by someone who has difficulty breathing
wobbly: if your voice is wobbly, it goes up and down, usually because you are frightened, not confident, or are going to cry
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