the front door to my back room

what do you know of loss?

no words for how much I adore these two characters and the ways their journeys parallel one another's... take this as part character study (what if they helped each other heal!) and part ship content (they were made for each other...) anyways. the shadowzel illness never stops

butch princess peach (+daisy)

shadowheart is an unimpressive and even lacking starting character if we go only by her specs. she's a cleric, but her starting cantrip, fire bolt, relies on intelligence, not wisdom. sacred flame doesn't have the same utilities as other cantrips bc it's a saving throw. she doesn't hit hard enough and her trickery domain provides little in-battle support. you benefit greatly if you spec her OUT of being a trickery cleric. what's more is that deception and intimidation and persuasion - all charisma-based skills - skills that sharrans SHOULD have proficiences and expertise in - are ones she uses with a deficit (-1) due to having poor charisma

anyway, do you ever think about how shadowheart is ill-suited to be a sharran but because of how she was raised, she had no choice but to conform to a lifestyle that actively harms her? i think about that a lot

She recently partnered with a new recruit from Zaun, the brash and reckless Vi. How such an unlikely pairing came about—and been proven so effective—is the subject of wild rumor and tavern speculation among their fellow Wardens, as well as those they haul away to jail.

Love her pointy little ears

Arcane ↳ Caitlyn Kiramman

BALDUR'S GATE 3 (2023) dev. Larian Studios

“bisexuals are invading lesbian spaces” bisexuals should be welcome in lesbian spaces. and vice versa. so please just jot that down.

exclusive “x/y/z sexuality only” spaces are regressive and while they can be helpful to a certain level once you turn away from “lesbians welcome!” to “bisexuals excluded” you are actively part of the problem

like i need people to understand being queer and being a lesbian is not about being a part of an exclusive lesbians only club that you only get access to if you disavow attraction to men enough. there is no big war against bisexuals you can win. there should be no fight here. we should not have concrete lines between our communities that only get crossed to begrudgingly accept that we both like women and then we go back to our separate clubhouses on different sides. this is not something that should be happening and i need everyone to understand that.

if you are mad about bisexuals invading lesbian spaces. or interacting with “lesbian only” things. or anything along those lines. you have already lost.

“we have completely different experiences” no we don’t . and even if we did, nothing would justify that way online, especially on tumblr and twitter, sexuality is being transformed into a bunch of little bubbles and ingroups that all hate eachother and are reluctant to view any overlap as opposed to a bunch of queer people who need to support and uplift eachother as much as we possibly fucking can. i don’t care if we have different experiences. i can learn from you. you can learn from me. this is good. be a part of my community.

like i am a dyke. you are a dyke . let’s not fight please i am so tired from everything else

trans men and trans masc people also deserve their respective place in “lesbian spaces” i am so tired of seeing lesbian trans men being excluded and disregarded when historically they have always had a place in our communities.

trans women and trans fem people also deserve their respective place in “lesbian spaces” i am so tired of seeing lesbian trans women being excluded and disregarded when historically they have always had a place in our communities.

I hear some people say that Shadowheart spills her Shar worship wayyyy too easily

But that's kind of the point, isn't it?

She worships the Lady of Loss and Darkness, Mistress of Secrets etc. etc. Shar's secrets are worth dying for and all that

And she's terrible at it

She doesn't need to tell you this. You don't even have to roll to get her to tell you this. And her mark hurts immediately after, it's clear that Shar disapproves/she's being punished for disobeying such a vital tenet. That thing hurts whenever she even remotely strays from Shar, and it happens a LOT.

She could have easily lied about it, or not revealed all the details. But it's like deep down she wants to be able to share these things. Wants to have someone to confide in so badly. She wasn't meant for this life, to serve this Goddess, and I think part of her, a part she buries so deeply both for self preservation and for her own sense of hope, knows it.

And hope! Hope has no place in Shar's teachings, she says so herself. But Shadowheart is a hopeful person. She hopes that by accepting Shar, she can find a sense of belonging within her cloister. She talks about hoping that she can become a Dark Justiciar, and that she knows her hope doesn't fit in with her teachings.

She desperately wants to fit in with her people, but it's so painfully clear that she doesn't, and she's punished for every misstep that could indicate she's straying. Her faith is a facade she uses to protect herself, and something she clings to out of hope. It's no wonder she spills her heart out to the first person to show her kindness and an open mind. She's starved for it!

The only lies this girl is good at telling are the ones she tells herself.