I’m haunted by the demons of my past. They thought I didn’t know how they fought but I always knew. I hid in the dark and watched and listened. And I promised myself that I’d never turn into my mother. And I haven’t. I’m stronger than her and I’ll never let a man break me like she did.

I’ll take the truth to my grave. I feel no need to tell anyone everything. But I almost told you.

It’s lonely to be known by no one.

Sometimes, people don’t want to die to die. They want to die to make the pain go away.

My whole life has revolved around the idea that I should feel guilty from having been born.

Medicate to get through the week.

I hate everyone, but especially you.

Not water. Dead inside tonight.

You’re the reason I still have trust issues

“Ah, it's been a year now

Think I've figured out how

How to think about you without it rippin' my heart out

I know, you know, we know

You weren't down for forever and it's fine

I know, you know, we know

We weren't meant for each other and it's fine” if the world was ending

You were my best friend. I keep trying to remind myself of all the reasons I should hate you and I still just miss you like crazy.

It’s easier to be fake than to be real. Because being real requires being vulnerable and being vulnerable is fucking scary.

“I wonder if my mind just leaves out all the bad parts.” I still miss you like crazy but I respect myself too much to reach out 😔

I never pretended to have good coping skills. I never lied.

Just add this to my list of questionable decisions.

I just wanted more time.

How I’m feeling 💔