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murder and memes

@maydei / maydei.tumblr.com

Luc, fandom old (they/them but whatever)multifandom blog || sometimes #nsfw || author etc etc
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maydei

Bored? Quarantined? Need a really, REALLY long fic (like 445k) to take your mind off things?

If you like your Hannigram with sugar daddy vibes, glitz and glamour, slow burn, long-game murder courting, an introspective take on gender identity, a ferocious and slightly feral Will Graham, & a plot-heavy spiral into chaos (with a happy ending)... 👠💋

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niceven1

Everyone needs to go read this, it is soooo very good!!!

babe 🥺🥹💜💜 thank you 🙏🏻

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dohrnaira

I don’t know how to describe this? It’s what happens when you read this amazing fic by @maydei and you realize your Loveless artbook survived all these years and you need an idea to practice and somehow Viktor ends up channeling Soubi (it’s the hair and the bandages) and…

Voilà

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maydei

I AM ABSOLUTELY DIGGING THIS ENERGY FOR MY LOVE VITYA MOTHERFUCKIN NIKIFOROV 💜💜💜💜

AMAZING ARTWORK LUV (and don’t worry i still have all my OG Loveless manga from a million years ago, too, lmfao)

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maydei

Bored? Quarantined? Need a really, REALLY long fic (like 445k) to take your mind off things?

If you like your Hannigram with sugar daddy vibes, glitz and glamour, slow burn, long-game murder courting, an introspective take on gender identity, a ferocious and slightly feral Will Graham, & a plot-heavy spiral into chaos (with a happy ending)... 👠💋

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maydei

Bored? Quarantined? Need a really, REALLY long fic (like 445k) to take your mind off things?

If you like your Hannigram with sugar daddy vibes, glitz and glamour, slow burn, long-game murder courting, an introspective take on gender identity, a ferocious and slightly feral Will Graham, & a plot-heavy spiral into chaos (with a happy ending)... 👠💋

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My petty peeve as an Appliance Person in Hannibal fandom is how I’ve seen Hannibal’s kitchen written. Hannibal Lecter would not have four stoves, especially not if you mean four standard 30″ residential-grade ranges. Hannibal Lecter doesn’t own GE or Frigidaire. Dear god, I have proven myself wrong.

In a perfect world, Hannibal Lecter would have a 60″ Viking Professional 5 Series side-by-side Dual Fuel double oven with Vari-Simmer and SureSpark ignition system and true European convection. 

Hannibal Lecter has 30″ double convection wall ovens and a 1200 CFM externally-vented Viking  wall-mount hood with telescopic flue for his vaulted ceilings an external blower.

Hannibal has a Regency 36″ commercial grade stainless basin sink. Maybe two Fisher & Paykel 36″ dishwasher drawers, though money’s on the bet he’d shell out for a few of the narrower Bosch instead because Bosch is the golden standard of dishwashers. 

Hannibal Lecter owns a microwave, except it’s a stainless-interior convection combination built-in with a 30″ stainless trim kit.

Hannibal Lecter obviously has a 36″ built-in panel-ready Sub-Zero refrigerator and freezer with anti-microbial air purification system. 

Hannibal Lecter’s kitchen appliances cost somewhere between $75k-$100k.

Hannibal has exactly one range, and it is the best damn range that money can buy. And he sighs absently while he reviews the quarterly release of new appliances, and likely thinks about adding in the Bosch 24″ built-in coffee maker. But alas, there is something so timeless about his gravity siphon that he simply can’t bring himself to do it.

After all, you can’t mess with perfection.

Hannibal Lecter owns exactly one inexpensive appliance: the 20 cu. ft. chest freezer he bought with cash, nearly twenty years ago. The man who sold it to him never learned his name. It weighs close to two hundred pounds and is very likely lead-lined, with a rusty but functional lock. The key resides hidden in Hannibal’s wine cellar; the freezer itself behind a false wall in a lonely room with only one electrical outlet.

No one who has ever seen that freezer lived to tell the tale.

hi it’s been two years and i’ve leveled up again, and i hate that i wrote this post because all of it is wrong, have a great day

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tlirsgender

When I was a kid I self identified as both "quirky" and "tomboyish" so you can imagine the kind of gender I have now

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“i will buy this game and then i will DEFINITELY play it later!”

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moon-arcana

This post gets funnier over time

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sindri42

You are like a little baby, watch this

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cavehags
Thus is the defining characteristic of gay millennials: we straddle the pre-Glee and post-Glee worlds. We went to high school when faggot wasn't even considered an F-word, when being a lesbian meant boys just didn't want you, when being nonbinary wasn't even a remote option. We grew up without queer characters in our cartoons or Nickelodeon or Disney or TGIF sitcoms. We were raised in homophobia, came of age as the world changed around us, and are raising children in an age where it's never been easier to be same-sex parents. We're both lucky and jealous. As the state of gay evolved culturally and politically, we were old enough to see it and process it and not take it for granted--old enough to know what the world was like without it. Despite the success of Drag Race, the existence of lesbian Christmas rom-coms, and openly transgender Oscar nominees, we haven't moved on from the trauma of growing up in a culture that hates us. We don't move on from trauma, really. We can't really leave it in the past. It becomes a part of us, and we move forward with it.
For LGBTQ+ milennials, our pride is couched in painful memories of a culture repulsed and frightened by queerness. That makes us skittish. It makes us loud. It makes us fear that all this progress, all this tolerance [...] can vanish as quickly as it all appeared.

The 2000s Made Me Gay, Grace Perry

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jhscdood

Coming from a reference group where everyone’s first queer movie was either Rocky Horror or Brokeback Mountain, it’s fascinating to talk (in person!) to gay teenagers who grew up with Korra and Stephen Universe and She-Ra. 

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maemaybe

This post was so validating and I needed it. I haven’t been able to put into words how genuinely traumatizing it was to come of age in the era of “the marriage debate”. 

I watched my older cousin, also a lesbian, have her own state-sanctioned marriages invalidated twice before marriage equality was passed at the national level. Now in her late 40s, she hasn’t bothered getting legally married to her partner. That sense that it can just be ripped away again is so real. 

I’m not sure if I’ll ever legally marry my partner either, for the same reason. We were living together when national marriage equality passed. I remember watching the news together and crying. It felt unreal. It still feels unreal on some level. There will always be that sense that it can just be ripped away. I will always remember that a significant portion of society sees me and my relationship as unworthy. Some of them may have had a change of heart over the last decade, but I won’t forget the things they said about people like me when I was growing up. 

This trauma is so real. So tangible to me. I feel it in my body. 

The world has changed so much in 20 years. I don’t even know how to begin to explain it to teenagers who weren’t alive for it. 

I still get choked up and teary-eyed when I hear gay lyrics playing in the mall, or see rainbow flags in the windows of banks or hotels during June. Not because I believe they, as corporations, actually care. I know it's soulless marketing. But I am brought to tears by the shock and relief of seeing the acknowledgment that we exist in any context besides condemnation. The fact that we are something worth catering to, after growing up in a world where, out of the three companies that created "gay ads", every single one of them got boycotted.

My chest gets tight when I see rainbow merchandise and realize that in this store, the gay employees can mention their families without risking their jobs. They get to dress up for pride and it's accepted as part of marketing instead of treated as a lewd and sickening breach of dress code.

I don't like that my community is being absorbed into the sick mill of capitalism, but that doesn't negate the relief of being treated like a real part of humanity that businesses want to lure in. I see rainbows on a restaurant window and I know I can take my boyfriend here without being refused service, without spit in my food, without long waits and frigid service. I see schools have pride events and have some hope that these kids won't get kicked off the busses for holding hands, won't get reported to their parents for "concerning deviant behavior" when seen with their partners.

I see rainbow flags at the courthouse and I actually cry as I realize that maybe, in this county at least, there won't be any more gay teens having to hide their relationship out of fear of their parent losing custody of their little siblings if word got out that someone in the household was a "pervert".

There will never be the words to explain the feeling of growing up at a time where trauma and alienation were a core, inseparable, part of your identity, and watching the formation of a world where it doesn't have to be. To go from being denied the vocabulary to even outline your existence, an environment of either straight, gay, or "something wrong with you, I guess", to watching teens squabble over microlabels to pin to their backpacks. To come from a generation that fought for changes they were certain they'd never see, to desperately celebrating every scrap of basic human rights we could wring from the government, to seeing a new generation who looks at these consolation prizes and shouts "not good enough" until their voices are actually heard. To go from the understanding that admitting my identity would bar me from most decent jobs, to seeing gay politicians and newscasters who kept their jobs, celebrities coming out as queer and trans and still getting roles, job listings requesting experience with the lgbtq+ community while I'm still too scared to mention my boyfriend in the workplace.

I don't think I will ever be capable of fully conveying these feelings to a generation who grew up hearing "-ally" instead of "-tolerant". And for that, I am so, so, overwhelmingly greatful. I've been watching the traumas that defined me become an absurdity of a bygone era, and for all that it's isolating, I have hope that no new generations will be able to relate again.

I know there's still struggles and trauma. I know the work isn't done. And I am not trying to pull a "kids these days". I just want to celebrate how far we've come and acknowledge what we've gone through to get here.

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wisesnail

Guys, I’m so happy to share with you the artwork commissioned by @maydei 

It’s for their fic Making Headlines,  which is a reimagining of canonverse earlier in the lives of surgeon!Hannibal and genderfluid!Will c:

I’ve noticed this was going around again, and got reminded of the joy of working on it and collaborating with @maydei 💙💙💙 Relevant link in the original post <:

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maydei

🥺🙏🏻 Working with Clo to have this piece come alive absolutely floored me. Headlines will always have a generous portion of my heart; the experience of writing it was so unique that part of me just misses WRITING it. And when I first saw this artwork, I remember taking a moment and flailing in place bc of how beautiful it came out. Like Clo copy-pasted right out of my brain. 😭😭 SHE IS THE REAL DEAL PEOPLE!!!

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– rough speed paint sketch inspired by the writing of the lovely @maydei [ chapter 32: 2:15 of making headlines ]  such a good tale this murder love story between a genderfluid will graham and hannibal lecter has quickly become one of my fav stories of 2017  

instagram: @winterofherdiscontent 

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maydei

i am literally speechless at how beautiful this is. thank you, thank you, thank you so so much ❤️

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