i feel like i need to be as honest as possible so i can feel light like a kite. i have taken so long to give you guys new music only bc i have no idea who i am. i don't know if i'm a woman a man a cat a beagle a whale or a dolphin. i'm figuring that out every day, as i hope you are too. i want to give everyone the opportunity to stop reading right now be i will now let you in on some very personal, triggering things and events that have been occurring to me and for my own personal growth.
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I am a sexual assault victim. I just realized this through a lot of therapy, silence, meditation and expensive, extensive work. I hug my inner child every day because it wasn't her fault.
Because of this i've tried to take my own life and thankfully failed more than once.
Because of this, i've only felt comfortable around women for a long time.
I always felt embarrassed to be gay.
it's hard to be gay! just ask anybody who's gay!
l used to be embarrassed to say i like girls, i kiss them, i have intimate moments with females in my life. For a long time, i was ONLY with girls until i met the most amazing human. Who has loved me unconditionally and continues to do so. I write all my songs about them. All my lovey dovey songs.
I am not a victim of what has happened to me. I was a victim of a sick person who made another person sick for a long time.
Believe it or not, i forgave him. And every man who's ever hurt me. Men are good. It's the boys who never become men that we need to worry about.
with that being said :
The universe is such a magnificent place that we get to call home & it gave us art, music and meditation. The only real things that ground and heal me.
i've been writing some of the hardest songs i've ever written cause of all of the crying and frustration i have inside me. But that's exactly what i do best, i channel it through art.
✨So now the good news is.... the album is coming out and with it.... 111 songs. Not all at once. But they exist and they're ready to be heard. Thank you for believing in this little venezuelan doral chamita. ✨
I love you guys so much and i'm preparing myself to give you everything i have cause you all give me everything every day you listen to my songs !!!
And to all my mental health sexual assault kings and queens, I LOVE YOU. I feel your pain. I am with you and you will heal !!! it's a miracle we are all alive in this pale blue dot.
Thank you for reading this. ily4ever and ever. y por siempre siempre siempre.
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