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I feel like I’ve gone through a lot of changes this year.

I started a new job, and even though I’m in a new job I’ve figured out that it isn’t what I want to be doing, and I feel much more clear on what I want.

I moved! Again. Back to the city. On my own. It’s so nice to have my own space to decompress in and make mine. I’ve spent the last several days doing a deep declutter, and it feels good to be getting rid of stuff.

I’ve cut out a lot of people who didn’t make me feel good. It hasn’t been easy but I feel a lot better mentally.

But with all this, I feel like I’ve hit some struggles and I don’t know if I’m ready to face them.

I still need to work on being healthy. Regular bedtimes, working out, eating right, etc etc.

I don’t feel comfortable dating. I’m not happy with myself right now, but I’m also not doing the work I REALLY need to be doing to be happy with myself.

I feel like I need to get into therapy for social anxiety, career counseling, and talking to guys. I feel like if I don’t I will be single and sad and alone in the future.

I also don’t feel comfortable witb going out since I am not happy with myself. I feel like I need to get things sorted at home and personally before I can feel free to dive into going out? Weird, admittedly.