Misguided Ghosts
I was a fool. I cheated on you, and I will carry the weight of that regret for a long time. You deserved better—so much better than the way I treated you, and better than the way things ended between us.
I wish I had been the man you needed back then. At the very least, you deserved a proper goodbye. But instead, I left behind damage and silence. And now, you've blocked me on everything—and honestly, I deserve that. I understand.
Still, there's so much I wish I could say, and since I have no way of reaching you directly, I’m posting this here. Maybe it’s more for me than for you. But either way, I just want to say it plainly:
I am truly sorry.
I am so sorry for the pain I caused you, for the betrayal, for the confusion. No, it wasn’t worth it. I was selfish, immature, and blind to the love you gave me. I can’t undo it. I can’t take it back. But I can tell you with every ounce of sincerity in me: I wish I could have done right by you. I wish we could have talked things through instead of letting everything crash the way it did.
You deserved honesty. You deserved care. You deserved someone who would have fought for you, not someone who threw it all away. And even though it’s too late to say this to your face—I hope, somehow, this message finds its way to you. Or at the very least, that the energy behind it reaches you.
I don’t want anything from you. I don’t want to reopen wounds or rewrite the past. I just hope… you’re happy now. I hope you’re safe. I hope you’ve healed and found peace. I hope that, wherever life has taken you, someone out there is loving you the way you should have always been loved.
I hope you’re surrounded by light, by laughter, by the kind of love that never falters.
You’ll probably never read this. But if you do—just know I’m sorry. Deeply, truly sorry. And more than anything… I hope you have the most beautiful life.
Take care of yourself, always.
T
