#XD- Day Twenty- Two- Time

Yesterday I wrote an entire entry about how angry and numb I was to what has been happening. I am an empath. One of the greatest gifts that get so heavy at times. This week had been pretty tough with the story about my sister in Seattle, pregnant and now dead by the hands of men who were expected to "protect and serve". It's been a hard thing to take in and it's become unsettling about how settled we've become with this horrendous behavior. As I left work and got in my car, I turned on my gospel playlist on Tidal and cried on the way home encouraging myself through song. I know song is therapy for me, especially music that reminds me of how big my God is. Music that allows me the opportunity to sing to my soul. Sing to the pain that's been captured in my lungs and body due to feeling this earth and all that happens here. Moments like I had make me better appreciate God and all of His sublime wonder. The small portion of news I get takes me to such a place. I appreciate Him even more because He knows and sees it all and I can barely manage with what I know! I got myself together though. He allowed me the opportunity to peak into ways I will be able to ignite change, gave me a peace because I choose to deal with what I FELT. Unapologetically alone, with the only one who could calm me. I'm grateful for time and how every moment means something different. Days like yesterday, weeks that start off heavy such as this one make me appreciate the smiles and laughs I get. I'm grateful for deep sighs and reassuring feelings. They make weeks easier. It made yesterday easier.

#XD30- Day 17- Silence

Sometimes words don't say enough. Experience teaches me the most. I'm a student of many things, pushing myself to do things that push me to become better. I haven't wrote because I didn't need to. I've been listening to what I should do before I intimidate myself with my own words. Life is definitely about turning things up. Going harder than the year and day before. Pushing limits with wisdom. Grateful for the growth, the silence, the lessons, and most of the results of hard work