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i was here.

@aevita / aevita.tumblr.com

i exist. i'm alive, because i bleed.
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some favorite quotes from little weirds by jenny slate:

  • I have wondered on many occasions if any confidence I have is just a weird side effect of foolishness and I live under the weight of so much embarrassment, I’m surprised the top of my head isn’t flat.
  • I am so delicate, so delicate that I am the one the ghosts know not to spook.
  • My vulnerability is natural and permissible and beautiful to me, and it should remind you of your responsibility to behave like a friend to me and the world.
  • But what am I supposed to do with all of the parts of my heart that are only there to be given?
  • When people get a glimpse of me I’d like them to feel like it is a good omen. I want to have a face with dirt on it. I want to jump on people!
  • I have always known that I would die for love. I think I am dying while or because of waiting for it. I cannot bear how it feels like a surging throng of beats and yells and gasps inside of my small form.
  • Is he stuck walking up a staircase for all eternity, stepping with each step on the words that he sent with all his heart, crushing them under his own invisible foot, feeling his real heart break? Did he choose love and it didn’t take, and now is he stuck in the world without the love, forever?
  • My physical heart feels so exposed, so shallowly planted. It feels like it is in my mouth.
  • I am a lovely woman. Who will come into my kitchen and be hungry for me?
  • Somebody always needs to go first. I know this. I go first.
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this year was nothing special Thank you for disappointing me always❤️

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from “ask polly: why should i keep going?”

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“You are not lost. You are here. Stop abandoning yourself. Stop repeating this myth about love and success that will land in your lap or evade you forever. Build a humble, flawed life from the rubble, and cherish that. There is nothing more glorious on the face of the earth than someone who refuses to give up, who refuses to give in to their most self-hating, discouraged, disillusioned self, and instead learns, slowly and painfully, how to relish the feeling of building a hut in the middle of the suffocating dust.”

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I HATE Elon Musk saying shit about how we need to preserve humanity by making other planets inhabitable before Earth isn’t inhabitable… if we can make MARS, a genuine lifeless shithole, or any other barren planet near us, into a habitable planet, why not just do that to post-climate disaster Earth? The planet that specifically suits our species? I’ve talked about this before but like, Earth will ALWAYS be more habitable than any other planet because we specifically evolved to survive here, even if it gets fucked up by climate change, living on here will still be better than living on mars or the fucking moon or whatever.

EARTH is a unique phenomena and if we lose it we will probably NEVER find anything like it again. This isn’t fucking Star Trek. I doubt we’re gonna find an “M Class Planet” or whatever within close range of travel. This is the world we have. If we can “FIX” some freezing lifeless rock like Mars than we can fix earth.

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i need!!! to be in the forest. run my hand through a little stream. climb over a fallen tree…maybe sit down on a stone and forget about society for a bit

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when hozier said “but i swear i thought i dreamed her” and when ronan lynch said “maybe i dreamt you” and when andrew minyard said “you are a pipe dream” and when harry styles said “she lives in daydreams with me”

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catlaila

a gift for @rietvelds​ ⟶ pynch

inside, they pretended they would dream, but they did not. they sprawled on the living room sofa and adam studied the tattoo that covered ronan’s back: all the sharp edges that hooked wondrously and fearfully into each other. “unguibus et rostro,” adam said. ronan put adam’s fingers to his mouth. he was never sleeping again.

love, your secret admirer 

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chaos-nblm

No offense but I want to be stupidly in love with someone. I want to be an utter fucking dumbass with someone and them have the same amount of chaotic energy. I want to go absolutely feral and them be just as into as I am

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