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If You Hold Onto It, Life Can Get Pretty Beautiful

@communionnimrod / communionnimrod.tumblr.com

Kerry - 36. ISFP. She/They. Bisexual. Writer. Gamer. Cosplayer. This blog is basically anything and everything I love. I post heavily in Our Flag Means Death, Green Day, Pacific Rim, Critical Role, and Bioware games. There will be occasional NSFW stuff. Main OTPS I post about: Gentlebeard (Edward Tech/Stede Bonnet, OFMD), Newmann (Newton Geiszler/Hermann Gottlieb, Pacific Rim), Shakarian (Shepard/Garrus, Mass Effect), Perc'ahlia (Percy/Vex, Critical Role)
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Reblogged warrenkoles
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i used to be so good at writing strong, thoroughly-researched, thoroughly-edited essays.

as a kid in hs, my teacher literally came up to me, holding my 40 page essay on the intersection of the European witch hunts and capitalism/exploitation/gender roles (it was supposed to be 7 pages...whoops) and went like "this is literally a master's-degree level thesis. what are you doing?? you could literally use this as your final dissertation in a master's program, what the fuck."

NOW??? NOW?? you'd think I'd be oh so skilled. but alas. i can barely piece together two ideas. adhd skill-regression is so so real. im SOBBING

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The skill can come back and it often does. It is not unusual for it skill recedes during stressful and painful times. Maybe you just need more stability/safety/kind people around you.

I have been through something similar a few times in my life with writing, yoga, studying...

Admittedly, my life is always financially and socially precarious, so my notion of stability currently just means "enough money to pay the rent and food for the next few months."

It is hard to hold onto anything when you have to fight for survival all the time, either materially or emotionally.

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Wow, uh. Okay, I'm gonna need a minute to process "It is hard to hold onto anything when you have to fight for survival all the time...". You're genuinely rewiring my brain is we speak.

Thank you, this means a lot to hear. <3

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Thank you as well. We have to help each other in this hellscape whenever we can.

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Re: the first kiss.

I love how Stede isn’t surprised. Like, he is but he isn’t? He never pulls away, he never moves back, there’s not even a momentary doubt. Ed kisses him and it’s RIGHT. Stede knows it’s right.

And this is a man who has probably never been kissed by someone like that. Who has probably never kissed a man, never kissed someone he truly desires, who loves him as he is, who wants him as he is. Ed is careful and gentle and gives Stede every chance to say no. It’s like everything slows down.

And Stede knows it’s right.

GIF by biceratops7
#brb sobbing#ofmd#gentlebeard
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Reblogged demonicsymphony
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hey it's probably a really good idea to download a copy of your Master Promissory Note since most of them stipulate that your loans are *specifically owed to the Department of Education* and if you intend to dispute the debt in the wake of the DoE dissolving that will be really good to have

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log in and then go to My Documents and download a copy of it. i'm serious. if trump dissolves the DoE entirely it may make the debt uncollectable depending on exactly how they do it, and he's too stupid to listen to lawyers that tell him when he's breaking the law. worst case you have an extra PDF on your computer. best case your student loans go away because you signed a contract to pay DoE and no one else. go download a copy.

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