Kathryn was keenly aware of the way Castiel followed the movement of her hand as it covered her abdomen. His gaze lingered there as the two of them listened, spellbound by the sound of this life they had created. Her eyes remained fixed on his. She had never longed more for his ability to read minds...
She loved her already, their daughter. As she’d said the words, “that’s our baby’s heartbeat,” she had been astonished by the intensity of the feeling, how much she could love someone she’d never met. Our baby... Those words came with a feeling so real it was as if she already did know her. There was a sense of someone there, behind the words, underneath her hand. She could feel her.
She was actually a bit envious that he’d been able to meet their child, at least in a sense, through the strange dreams he’d had. She was grateful for it too though. Had their daughter not reached out to him, Kathryn wasn’t sure he would have given her the grace she needed to survive and continue to develop. She swallowed hard. All that time she had thought he wanted to destroy the life that grew inside her, he’d actually been sustaining it, despite everything he had been taught his whole (substantially long) life. Even now, he was nourishing their unborn child as much as she was. She watched Castiel’s face. His expression was serious; there was a slight crease in his brow, yet overall he was still maddeningly unreadable. Her heart was pounding. She felt breathless. Did he regret that decision now? What was he thinking?
On impulse, she reached across the space separating them and placed her free hand over his. One hand over her daughter, one over him. Both of them hers, safe, at least for now. Her family. She linked them in this way, through her, a very personal attempt at a peace treaty. Only she wanted something more than peace. She wanted him to love their daughter as much as she did.
Her fingers curled around his hand. She squeezed gently.
“I know you’re scared,” Kathryn spoke gently, knowingly. “I am too. --My daughter is going to be...Nephilim.” She dared to say the word, sounding it out carefully, watching him even more carefully still. They needed to get used to saying it, hearing it, accepting it. She needed him to get used to the idea without being so conflicted about it, without thinking that word must mean abomination. Or forbidden. “Something I didn’t even believe in before...,” she trailed off again. Before you. Her eyes searched his, earnest, as she continued in the same soft tone. “If you don’t think that’s daunting for me, you’re giving me too much credit. But, I look at you...and I can’t believe our daughter could be anything other than good.” Her lips quirked ever so slightly. “I guess you could say I have faith... I wish you could look at me and feel that too.”