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dark skies, bright heavens

@marsmaddness / marsmaddness.tumblr.com

they/she. tired writer. genderfluid lesbian. mexican.
i like video games and stories that make my heart hurt. you'll see me posting lots of ffxiv/ff, other video games, films, tv shows, danmei, some witchy things, and other stuff that catches my fancy. guaranteed a lot of queer shit.
generally very unserious unless stated otherwise. :)
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april fools day is actually the most sensible day of the year because it's the only day on which people will read something on the internet and stop for a second to consider whether or not it's actually true

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dykefaggotry

interesting how transmascs & transfems alike think losing weight is the answer to pass as our chosen gender.... almost as if fat people are never Truly afforded a passing gender regardless of trans status. as fat people we are never Truly seen as Men or Women. anyway fuck that notion & if u think u need to lose weight to pass that's the devil talking

i'd also like to point out that this is a problem with people seeking to present androgynously. even androgyny must be skinny in the eyes of the world. in order to even be a person outside of gender, you mustn't be fat

i want fat nb folks to know that you aren't any less of a person or any less androgynous for being fat

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IDGAF if the women in my fiction are empowering or aspirational, I'm an adult, I don't need role models, I want the women in my fiction to be interesting, and if that involves being pathetic, hypocritical, amoral, or trapped in a delightfully dysfunctional relationship so be it

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the best thing about creating is you get to create :) unfortunately the worst thing about creating is that you have to.. create

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it’s okay to do things that make your symptoms worse (as long as you’ll stay safe)

every once in a while you need to eat something yummy. or go on a walk. or a trip to the zoo. take a hot shower. cry your eyes out. dance. listen to music. draw for way to long. write. laugh. sit in a cafe with a friend. paint your nails. dye your hair. go on a run. pet a cat

sometimes you need to do things that are cathartic or make yourself feel alive. sometimes you need the reminder of why you’re fighting so hard to stay alive

this is your reminder that just because it makes your symptoms worse, it isn’t always the wrong thing to do. there can be value in these actions

If you think about it too, abled people do it all the time. Deciding to drink to excess at a party knowing they'll have a hangover. Going to a theme park knowing walking all day is going to hurt their feet by the end. We have the right to make those same decisions.

This is called Dignity of Risk, and it's an important concept in disability justice.

Everyone weighs their physical and mental/emotional health against one another in constantly shifting balance; inevitably, there are times when we choose to accept consequences to one for the sake of the other.

Infantilsing us by undermining our agency in the name of "protection" or "care" is yet another way that we are disabled by society.

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so i finally downloaded all the fic from ffnet i ever consumed and still remember. was able to find everything except 1 author's works, but i reached out to someone who might still have them... now i won't ever have to return to that site again :D

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life's too short to write for an imaginary critic that you fear will hate what you wrote

to be clear, odds are good that someone will hate what you wrote, but that doesn't mean the writing is bad. That means they aren't part of your audience.

don't write for them.

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