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kris • [30-something] • slytherin • ESTJ • writer • runner • leo • phd candidate • researcher • fanfic, doctoral dissertation, and non-fiction book writing • therentyoupaywriting.com
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[ modern!AU | neighbors-to-lovers!AU | mountain living!AU ft. jelsa ] [ based on snow globe by @therentyoupay ] [ 1 2 ]

On July 1st, the lonely house at the top of the mountain was finally sold.In which Jack(son) Overland tries his best to befriend his neighbor, one woodworking project at a time. Prompt: Three-word sentences: "Just say it," for @aicosu.
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hello hi i'm alive i'm THRIVING but i am in the final stretch!! since my last post i have earned a second master's degree and written my dissertation proposal manuscript (155 pages!!!) and acquired two new research assistants (now i have a team of 4!!) and written a bunch for my non-fiction book and done market research for potential publishers with my advisor and started another company (secret secret secret) and presented my research at a national conference and started growing my professional following for the first time with total strangers outside my usual professional networks and been nominated for an award and ON THURSDAY I HAVE MY DISSERTATION PROPOSAL DEFENSE EXAM

ALMOST THERE

LOVE YOU ALL SEE YOU IN ONE MONTH LOL

YA GIRL IS ABD

I HAVE MUCH MUCH WORK TO DO THIS WEEKEND BUT OFFICIALLY I AM LESS THAN A YEAR AWAY FROM BEING A PHD HOLDER, Y'ALL

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hello hi i'm alive i'm THRIVING but i am in the final stretch!! since my last post i have earned a second master's degree and written my dissertation proposal manuscript (155 pages!!!) and acquired two new research assistants (now i have a team of 4!!) and written a bunch for my non-fiction book and done market research for potential publishers with my advisor and started another company (secret secret secret) and presented my research at a national conference and started growing my professional following for the first time with total strangers outside my usual professional networks and been nominated for an award and ON THURSDAY I HAVE MY DISSERTATION PROPOSAL DEFENSE EXAM

ALMOST THERE

LOVE YOU ALL SEE YOU IN ONE MONTH LOL

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Hiiii I need help

I’m having trouble writing a fight scene between two characters in a relationship. I don’t want it to be a break up sort of fight, just a healthy spat between lovers that will make their relationship all the stronger after they resolve it. But I’m not really well versed in “healthy conflict” so I was hoping you’d have some questions to keep in mind/tips experience you could share because you’re an amazing writer 🙏🏻

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HELLO MY DARLING

first, thank you so much for your sweet words. 😭😭😭😭😭😭🙏 second, i have been pondering your question for a day and a half!

i have been really thinking about it and i have some initial thoughts… but i am sure that this post will just be the start of an ongoing conversation. i think the word i have been chewing on is “healthy.” on the one hand, there are certain things that most people might universally agree as “healthy conflict” in a relationship (or nearly universally), and then there are things that are very culture-dependent (and i do not mean this necessarily in the essentialist sense, i.e., nation-state-as-culture, but also in terms of ‘doing culture’ according to family, friends, region, socioeconomic status, social rank, behaviors, etc.). and then there are things in each relationship that may be less healthy than the ideal but still healthy in the long run, in the sense that it provides space for growth; couples have horribles fights that nearly tear them apart but, for whatever reason, don’t. in my experience, both in life and in fiction, sometimes i think these can often be the hardest, toughest fights, because they have the lowest lows but the highest potential for hope/resolution/something better.

if i am thinking on what it is about these fights that make them so painful and exhausting and “i just want to find a way to fix this but i can’t see the way forward and i am going to stay because i love them but i don’t have the tools right now to get out of this hole,” here’s what comes to mind:

  • both people are in pain
  • somehow, trust has been lost to some degree
  • one or both people do not currently feel safe, either from judgment or abandonment… maybe both… maybe something else too
  • a disagreement may turn “ugly” so quickly when things that are shared in confidence are thrown back in someone’s face, or some vulnerable sticking point that is supposed to be protected is being used against them in the heat of the argument because things begin to escalate so quickly
  • at what point can one person step in and find a space to pause/timeout; table the conversation; de-escalate? if neither can, the fight gets worse. if at least one can… that could be the turning point for a softer resolution, even if the other person needs additional coaxing or convincing to join them in the de-escalation. can both suddenly or eventually pause and de-escalate? through humor? through a release of emotion at the core under the anger, like tears and sadness?
  • at some point during these fights, or perhaps after, one or both might start to feel shame… for their behaviors, their reactions, their words… how can one person bridge the gap that was created when one or both crossed a line? (or many lines?) sometimes all it can take is a hug to lessen the divide, and sometimes apologies are necessary, and plans for changing behaviors, and explanations, or any combination. so how does one (or both) handle their apology? are they both good at taking accountability and learning at this stage in their relationship? do they make good on their promises to change, or at least try? (we are human after all!)
  • does the resolution match the degree of the fight? if something was weaponized, has it been dismantled by the end, or is it left hanging in the air, even after the apology or de-escalation?

definitely lots to think about! i think the degree of “healthy” is going to depend on a lot of factors, and will inevitably also be influenced by your readers’ personal experiences and what they bring to their interpretations! but definitely things to potentially keep in mind: who is in pain and why? what tools do they have to resolve the pain? are they scared to solve it or not solve it (or both)? how well can they solve it at this moment in time—or later?

thank you for the ask!!!! 💕💕💕💕 good luck and keep me posted!!! i hope these are helpful. 🙏🙏🙏🙏

also, others: please feel free to add additional thoughts and considerations!!! 🙏🙏🙏🙏

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callimara

Wildward ; animal-themed magical girls for mature audiences by callimara. In which being secret magical girls in your mid-20s is way harder than you think.

[ supernatural, horror, action, mystery, romance, angst, slice-of-life, enemies-to-lovers ]

Chapter 4: “Two lies and a truth.

(8,735 words | feb 7, 2024)

“The Curious Life of Colette Le Gauthier.”

video in progress!
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disneydarlin

Frozen: Kristoff Bjorgman —Aesthetic

Kristoff Bjorgman's Character & Personality

Kristoff is a twenty-one-year-old miserly loner. He lacks respect for those around him, specifically in terms of personal boundaries and sensitivity. This is due to growing up in a family of mythical creatures and wildlife, as opposed to humans. Thus, Kristoff mostly looks out for himself and can be quite selfish from time to time. He focuses primarily on his ice business and life on the mountains. As such, Kristoff generally keeps to himself and only interacts with others for business. Being an avid wilderness survivor, he's self-reliant and efficient when facing various perils. Despite his dislike for society, Kristoff has a loving heart. At He's quite harmless, innocent, compassionate and protective deep down. Kristoff can be sensitive and sweet to those who give him the same treatment. When it comes to those he loves, he can be loving, respectful, selfless and sacrificial. Kristoff is willing to risk his life and happiness for other's without hesitation. Eventually, he opens up to human interaction. In fact, Kristoff is quite quirky and bashful. Although he's romantic, he's shy and embarrassed about his feelings. Overall, Kristoff has a down to earth point of view and is a realist.

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disneydarlin

Frozen II: Anna's Autumn —Aesthetic

At this stage in Anna's life, she believes everything is perfect. As such, she doesn't want anything to change. All the people Anna loves and cares about are present. Additionally, she has the freedom to venture outside the castle and have a social life. However, she doesn't realize she still has growing to do.

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I got to hold a 500,000 year old hand axe at the museum today.

It's right-handed

I am right-handed

There are grooves for the thumb and knuckle to grip that fit my hand perfectly

I have calluses there from holding my stylus and pencils and the gardening tools.

There are sharper and blunter parts of the edge, for different types of cutting, as well as a point for piercing.

I know exactly how to use this to butcher a carcass.

A homo erectus made it

Some ancestor of mine, three species ago, made a tool that fits my hand perfectly, and that I still know how to use.

Who were you

A man? A woman? Did you even use those words?

Did you craft alone or were you with friends? Did you sing while you worked?

Did you find this stone yourself, or did you trade for it? Was it a gift?

Did you make it for yourself, or someone else, or does the distinction of personal property not really apply here?

Who were you?

What would you think today, seeing your descendant hold your tool and sob because it fits her hands as well?

What about your other descendant, the docent and caretaker of your tool, holding her hands under it the way you hold your hands under your baby's head when a stranger holds them.

Is it bizarre to you, that your most utilitarian object is now revered as holy?

Or has it always been divine?

Or is the divine in how I am watching videos on how to knap stone made by your other descendants, learning by example the way you did?

Tomorrow morning I am going to the local riverbed in search of the appropriate stones, and I will follow your example.

The first blood spilled on it will almost certainly be my own, as I learn the textures and rhythm of how it's done.

Did you have cuss words back then? Gods to blaspheme when the rock slips and you almost take your thumbnail off instead? Or did you just scream?

I'm not religious.

But if spilling my own blood to connect with a stranger who shared it isn't partaking in the divine

I don't know what is.

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hi! ✨ what piece of writing are you most proud of?

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Thank you for the ask! The piece of writing I’m most proud of would probably be The Lady Knight. It’s the first thing I ever really wrote for a fandom that I was brave enough to publish - and one of the only things as of yet, and it went from one chapter to potentially two to now positively four (I’m sure you can relate)

Thank you again so much for the ask! 😘❤️❤️❤️

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