idk what lead me to read old messages and my inbox but WOWWWW i was really going through it and trauma dumping all over the place on here

i feel like i need to give everyone a giant thank you and an even bigger apology. Even though tumblr has always been seen as the “depression” site, i don’t think it’s fair that ppl were ambushed by my very triggering and concerning post, regardless of tws or tags and though most of the time i forgot i still had active followers lol and mutuals who genuinely cared for me. So… thanks to every and anyone who has ever reached out to me when i was really beating myself up. 2018/2019 were dark years for me and at the time i didn’t realize how much those messages and well wishes kept me from doing drastic things as well as just made me feel less alone. Now its 5 years later and i’m in a much better mental state, idk how many ppl will actually see this but thank you for everything. I didn’t understand or really appreciate all the kind words ppl were sending since it wasn’t from the ppl who i wanted to hear it from but now I’m feeling all those thoughts/prayers at 3am on a random thursday and i took it all for granted back then. Thank you thank you thank you and i’m so sorry. Sorry if anything i wrote triggered you or made you feel uncomfortable or even made you (rightfully) block me. I’m 23 now and although i still struggle here and there, that frontal lobe is definitely developing and the world feels less scary and a lot more fun. Ive developed better coping mechanisms, put less pressure on friends, got a lot better at understanding my feelings and became my own person. Thanks for being my friends when i felt like i had no one, thank you for being the voices of reason, thank you for providing me a safe place to release and now reflect. Thank you :)

I also noticed how long i’ve been mutuals with some of you!!! Some of you it’s been like 8+ years which is INSANE (also makes me realize how long ago Legend of Korra came out) and our ages went from 14/17 to 23/26 and some of you are even married and have families??? Hope y’all are all doing well and look fondly on the Supernatural or Atla/lok or SU or Miraculous ladybug or Voltron days, I know i do <3