Happy 5 years on T to me!! 

To all my friends and family who’ve been alongside me these last few years, thank you for your boundless love, positivity, patience, presence, and support.

I’ve grown so much both physically and emotionally in the last 5 years; I can’t wait to see what the future brings!

Coming up on 5 years on testosterone, most of the physical changes are preeeeeetty much done. The hair keeps creeping up slowly, every few months I pull my belt in a little tighter where my hips are disappearing much more slowly than the glaciers, but aside from that I physically feel very much at a plateau.

Maybe once a year I’ll feel a little weird and need to raise or lower my dose for a couple of weeks but for the most part second puberty and I have gotten on just fine and I’m looking forward now to seeing the more long-term effects of aging & transitioning. I can’t wait until I start going grey, and having wrinkles & shit. Like hell, I never thought I’d make it to 18 and here we are more than 5 years later.

My grandfather stopped by my store last night and I haven’t seen him since last winter. It was great to see him, I hadn’t realized how old he looks these days. I felt bad I couldn’t stop working and really catch up with him before he got picked up because we were in the throes of closing up shop, but we did talk about him moving out of his Bronx house and me helping him with the heavy lifting now that I live so close by. 

I moved over the summer into a wonderful apartment with more than reasonable rent and am content to just save as much as I can before embarking on my next goal!

A few things have changed, markedly my ability to take a selfie with my phone

Pre-T vs. 4 years on T [2.5 years post op]

My new doctor is amazing

I feel like I’ve finally found a doctor I can work with who respects me, my financial limitations, and my spare time. Side note: she also called me back personally after I left a message on the office phone.

When I first walked into the clinic she’s based out of I was the first appointment of the day (9am, I arrived at 830). I filled out the normal “first time at a new doctor” forms and got checked in and pre-screened by the nurse on duty. I was only waiting a little over 20 minutes in all for the doc to come in and she wasted no time in asking my goals and options with taking her on as my primary care doctor. I summarized my transition up to this point while giving her the contact info of all the doctors I’ve seen relating to my transition and she asked me specifically what I need the most and in what time frame. She took bloods for testing and she wrote me 2 referrals to both the psych I’m required to get cleared by for my insurance to cover any transition related surgical procedures, and for the surgeon I’m planning on seeing later this year. She also wrote me an immediate prescription which I’m picking up tomorrow. It got pre-authorized by my insurance the day it was written for 3 months worth of the highest concentration of Androgel (1.62%) with the hope that she’ll learn more about and be able to prescribe me Axiron (45mg/pump) by the end of January.

I hope to get my records from Callen-Lorde sent over to her by the end of next week, though I faxed in the HIPPA forms almost 2 weeks ago though and haven’t heard anything from them (as per usual). Worst case she told me she would be able to contact them directly if I could fax her the release as well, so I might end up doing that should I get fed up waiting.

I’m excited thinking about how I’ll pass my 4th year on testosterone hopefully injection-free!

For anyone in the NYC-Bronx area looking for a primary doctor trained and specializing in transgender healthcare, shoot me a message because this is at least for me a dream come true in the midst of the nightmare I woke up to this morning.

This halloween I was commander Riker, also enjoy the best selfie I’ve ever taken with a cat!

Tuesday I’ve got a first appointment with a prospective new PCP at her recently-started family practice with specialty in transgender care! So if there’s anyone around the NYC area looking for or interested in a private/family Dr who specializes in endocrinology and transgender health I’ll let ya know how it goes.

I’ll be doing a more in-depth write up of my process transferring away from Callen-Lorde and hopefully using my brand new starbucks insurance for further things after I’ve gotten settled with a new doc

Taking advantage of the great lighting earlier with some selfies

3 years 9 months on T, 2 years 3 months post op

A bit late but 1 year post op vs 2 years post op!!

[2.5 years on T vs 3.5 years on T]

Happy second birthday to my chest!

1 week post op [1.5 years on T] 1 year post op [2.5 years on T] 2 years post op [3.5 years on T]

Selfie dump from this past week:

Dbag mirror selfies ft. severe hard part Hangin out at a college 1/3 of the way through an opa-clopen (back-to-back triple shifts)

@teenagegaywad on snapchat

I can’t believe it’s been almost 2 years since my top surgery - so happy life’s moving forward in such a positive direction & amazed at how much this has impacted my life for the better

41 months on T 23 months post op

On days I don’t go to the gym I love doing hand stand pushups

~40 months on T ~23 months post op

Happy transgender day of visibility, everyone!! (ft. boyfriend)

So many work selfies ft. some of my bowtie collection

bedhead bed selfies

3 years 4 months on T 1 year 9 months~ post op

Barista boy needs a nap and to go to the gym

Here’s a progression I haven’t posted in a while:

Pre-shave IMMEDIATE REGRET 2 week scruff

3 years 3 months on T