"Hate me, Love me, Miss me."
my muse will tell you something about you they hate, something they love, and something they would miss if you left.
- I HATE YOU ( BUT NOT FOREVER )
one thing I hate is the control you have over me.and the way you think I don’t care — can’t you see?if you really don’t want this, if that’s why you try to flee,then just tell me you don’t love me, and I’ll set you free.
the way your eyes shine in the moonlight — and your innocence.the way you wait for me to sleep before you allow yourself to.the way you take your time in the morning to put on your war paint.the way your fingers trace figures on my neck before you say‘ I’ll be back — I promise. ’ and leave to war against the enemy.the way you smile softly before leaning in to kiss me goodnight,the way you accidentally said ‘ I love you ’ when the time was right.
take these things away from me and what’s left is the broken heartof a broken girl. but that doesn’t matter because when you gaveyour heart to me that night you told me you loved me — I took itwith open arms and the softest of touches, told you that I’ll look after it for you when it gets dark, that I’ll link it to my own so thatthey can beat in unison. I told you I’ll try to fix it — and you noddedto me before handing it over — as well as your trust, your soul, andyour love. ~ and yes baby, I love you too.
- I MISS YOU ( PLEASE COME BACK )
all of the above plus the way your lips would linger on mine whenyou weren’t ready to break our kiss just yet. I miss you, I miss you.all of the above and also the way you’d mutter three simple wordsinto my ear when you’d think I was sleeping. I miss you, I miss you.all of the above and god, the way your breath would break into twohitched breaths whenever my nails would run down your back andwhenever I’d kiss your neck. I miss you, I miss you, god, I miss you.
but mostly the way you made me feel whenever I told you I had tocarry a whole mountain upon my back. the way you’d scoot overnext to me, embrace me, and carry the weight with me. please docome back soon — you made me whole again. I miss you, I missyou, I miss you.
ps. my body cannot live without a heart. and I know you took it withyou because when you left that morning without saying goodbye, Ifelt the tug in my chest as you yanked out the only thing that mademe feel human — along with yourself.
