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A collection of musings about pretty much anything that catches my fancy.
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The Arrangement

Summary: You managed to convince Astarion not to go through with the rite of profane ascension. He remains a vampire spawn, and you now offer your blood from time to time to help with his sanguine hunger until a solution is found.

Even though you had both decided to stay as friends back in Moonrise Towers, lines begin to blur once more as other cravings come to the surface… and things with Astarion are seldom uncomplicated.

Pairing: Astarion x female!Tav

Rating: Explicit/18+

Setting: Canon compliant. Post-endgame.

Warnings (will be added as the series progresses): Blood drinking. Pining. Biting. Sexual tension. Mentions of past abuse. Explicit smut.

Chapter 1 - Bloodlust

Chapter 2 - In Between

Chapter 3 - Inconvenience

Chapter 4 - Solution

Chapter 5 - Confrontation

Chapter 6 - Broken

Chapter 7 - Tension

Chapter 8 - Revelations

Chapter 9 - The Arrangement

Chapter 10 - A New Way

Chapter 11 - First Light

Chapter 12 - In the Beginning

Chapter 13 - Tempest

Chapter 14 - Trance

Chapter 15 - Acquaintances

Masterlist . AO3 (cross-posted there)

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It’s been a few years since I’ve read NA: Is it mentioned whether the General abused his wife as well, or did he truly love her and become kind of worse after she died? Do we see if he treats Frederick differently from the other two? Was wondering if it might be a golden child dynamic.

This question came up in a comment on one of my fics and I quite like my reply to it, so I decided to just straight up copy it:

Well, in case of Frederick it's mostly, to me at least, that some people don't want to consider that he COULD be a victim to because he IS an ass. That he is an ass isn't exactly debateable. In my opinion though, he's also a victim. As far as whether he's the prized golden child... Not really. There's this scene: Her tranquillity was not improved by the General’s impatience for the appearance of his eldest son, nor by the displeasure he expressed at his laziness when Captain Tilney at last came down. She was quite pained by the severity of his father’s reproof, which seemed disproportionate to the offence; and much was her concern increased when she found herself the principal cause of the lecture, and that his tardiness was chiefly resented from being disrespectful to her. This was placing her in a very uncomfortable situation, and she felt great compassion for Captain Tilney, without being able to hope for his goodwill.

He listened to his father in silence, and attempted not any defence, which confirmed her in fearing that the inquietude of his mind, on Isabella’s account, might, by keeping him long sleepless, have been the real cause of his rising late. It was the first time of her being decidedly in his company, and she had hoped to be now able to form her opinion of him; but she scarcely heard his voice while his father remained in the room; and even afterwards, so much were his spirits affected, she could distinguish nothing but these words, in a whisper to Eleanor, “How glad I shall be when you are all off.” Which... wow. It gets me every time. Catherine absolutely misreads the room here, but what she witnesses is... We have the general who is outright SCOLDING his eldest son in front of a guest. And it's not just a marked comment or anything, he's giving him a whole lecture, humiliating him in front of a relative stranger. He treats this grown ass man with less respect than many would a child. And Frederick just takes it. Which can be read as a clear sign that he's used to this behaviour. And the way he whispers to Eleanor? His words aren't kind but understandable and it's a kind of sibling solidarity. I can't really explain it, just like most other scenes where General Tilney display emotionally abusive behaviour, I just /know/. Because I grew up with an emotionally abusive parent, I have a parent far too much like him and I've been there. Both my brother and I have been berated in front of people who aren't part of the family, both my brother and I exchanged more than one whispered "God, I can't wait for this to be over" and growing older, getting used to it, we both just stood there and took it while we waited for that mood to pass, because trying to defend oneself, figthing back, anything really... would only make it worse. I'd actually go so far and say that having grown up in an emotionally abusive household explains some of Frederick's displayed callousness (just as it explains Henry's desire to be liked, his slight jealousy, his cynicism, and Eleanor's quiet, reserved and submissive attitude).

And whether General Tilney loved his wife or not, well... There's no way to truly tell, but what IS telling is the way Henry "defends" his father: “But your father,” said Catherine, “was he afflicted?”

“For a time, greatly so. You have erred in supposing him not attached to her. He loved her, I am persuaded, as well as it was possible for him to—we have not all, you know, the same tenderness of disposition—and I will not pretend to say that while she lived, she might not often have had much to bear, but though his temper injured her, his judgment never did. His value of her was sincere; and, if not permanently, he was truly afflicted by her death.” "He loved her as well as it was possible for him to (love)" and "I am persuaded" aka "I want to believe this". Henry is faced with the reality that Catherine considers his father capable of murder and even then the best he can come up with is "he has a different way of showing love". It's sad, because Henry can't even say THAT with certainty. The "I'm persuaded"... that's just sad because that's a child that doesn't know whether he has EVER been loved by his father. He wants to believe that his father loved his mother, that his father loves the three of them... But he has never been given any solid proof. He has never been made felt loved by his own father. And, in any other situation, this might even be "okay he's a bit vague but then, we none of us can make definite statements regarding the hearts of others" .. Only, he IS trying to defend his father. Any child, when asked "was your parent sad when your other parent died" should immediately go "Of course they were! They loved them!"... Henry doesn't. He can't even bring himself to properly defend his father because he doesn't know whether it would be the truth! It's so damn sad. And right there in the same paragraph he admits that his father was abusive. Never physically, but emotionally/psychocologially. Mrs Tilney suffered likely in a way very much like Eleanor does during the novel.

And I could go on, because the way his children tense up around him, how they all turn so much more quiet and subdued? How, the first time Catherine meets Eleanor and Henry in company of their father for dinner, she wonders whether SHE did something to offend them because they behaved like totally different people? How Catherine can't bring herself to like the General because something about his behaviour is off? The departure from Bath when he nearly threw out Catherine's writing desk and only didn't because it's hers... meaning that he would have thrown out ELEANOR'S possession without hesitation... How he likes to pretend everything is picture perfect and will lash out if any of his children put it at risk, how he easily chooses whom Henry should or shouldn't marry. THIS very line: The general, accustomed on every ordinary occasion to give the law in his family, prepared for no reluctance but of feeling, no opposing desire that should dare to clothe itself in words, He KNOWS he's hurting his children and he's not giving a single fuck. And he knows that they are too AFRAID to speak up against his treatment of them.

I could write a whole essay analysing every moment of pagetime this man has because every damn moment shows signs of an abuser. He looked at those checklists for signs of emotional parental abuse and made a fucking BINGO card of them. There's just so much.

//This is, of course, only my personal reading of the novel and my personal, utterly subjective opinion, but I still thought it might be worth sharing.

The rage I felt when someone defended General Tilney as just a "lonely old man". No sir. This man is an abuser.

It is interesting that he treats all three kids the same. Frederick even is forced to have a profession, which is unusual for a very wealthy heir, probably just because dad was forced to have one too. It makes me wonder if General Tilney was the second son and still has a chip on his shoulder from that.

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The Pause

Pairing: Javier Peña x fem!reader

Summary: You and your colleague Javier Peña have never gotten along, but with just a simple proposition that started off as a joke, it turns out you do work well together in some areas.

Warnings: smut| fingering, oral sex (f receiving), squirting, protected p in v sex (ik me writing that they use a condom? Incredible), praising, size-kink, and reader is not shaved (bc lets be honest now yo girl is so over that) 

A roll of the eyes and a loud enough huff... the usual warm greeting reserved for your colleague.

"Good morning to you too" he mocked, raising his head as you sat at the desk in front of him.

"had a rough night?" he continued, wanting nothing more than to see that look on your face when he poked you just enough.

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