I want to get the fuck out of this town.

I've lost all my friends, my future, my hope and basically everything else. Nothing seems to be improving. I don't know what's wrong with me at this point. Everyone thought I was making progress but again, I failed to do that. I fail at everything. Friendships, relationships, school, there really isn't anything I haven't fucked up yet. I need a fresh start. I need to get out of this hell hole of a town. I'm sick and tired of these people, these problems. I know running away from my problems won't get rid of them, but at this point I'm desperate. What will ever change?

Everything is ruined. I just want to die.

I'm so upset right now. I don't know what to do. I miss my best friend, my sister. I can't remember the last time I felt like you wanted to see me or enjoy my presence. I want things to go back to the way they were, when you considered me as part of your family. I don't even know what I did that made you turn on me. I miss our sleepovers, adventures whenever we'd go out, seeing your family, everything. But it seems like you don't miss any of that. You act like everything is fine when we're together but when we're apart, everything is just wrong. I miss you more than you'll ever know and I don't even know if you miss me. I'm still the same person. I know I went through a lot and maybe you got too involved with it, but I don't get why you just dropped me. It's not fair.

Mom ruined the day once again.

Can't we ever function like a normal mother and daughter?

Once again, I have all those feelings. I thought the Prozac would help but it just made everything worse. Now I'm switching to Lexapro, I hope it goes better. I'm just sick of feeling like a disappointment to myself and everyone around me. I feel like no one understands what I'm going through and why everything is so hard for me. I just want to feel happy for once, is that so much to ask? I want to be like all the other kids and have a fun time and socialize and go to school. I want to be normal. My mind just doesn't let me. And I don't know how to change that, neither does anyone else. Fuck it. I'll be this way forever.

Another horrible day.

Just when I thought my mom and I were getting along, she had to be such an asshole. I'm so sick of it. Why can't everything just be good and fun instead of bad and miserable. I hate my life so fucking much.

I'll be okay. As long as we can just go somewhere soon. I need something to look forward to.

I'm so lonely.

How long do I have to be repeatedly let down and disappointed?

Why do the rich get to keep getting richer and the poor have to keep getting poorer?

Now that the day has come, it's all become clear to me.

I'm so sad and alone. All I want is to get out of here, and I'm stuck because of stupid fucking money. I wish money didn't exist. The amount of problems it causes is unbelievable.

Whatever. I'm just miserable and I can't find any reason to cheer up. Nobody cares how I feel either. I want to just get out of this awful town and relax and not worry but it's become clear to me that that will never fucking happen.