Oh yea! I turned 27 today! And I made myself a cheesecake to celebrate!
I still feel so deeply that I can't see the end
A bottomless pit of despair or something akin to heaven
I'm casting bright lights and dark shadows
Drenching myself in tears and sun bathing in smiles
I try to hold it all back but it crashes through like waves hitting a cliff
Some days I swim easily
Some days I am drowning
Every day I'm on that cliff, engulfed, floating
My love, you have found me once more
It feels like an eon has passed
I have grown older
I am not the same little girl who used to run up and play in your petals
I am no longer even a girl
But you still love me the same
You still smell just as sweet
My love, the universe had mercy upon me
By letting you grow in my presence once more
I have loved you for an eternity
Your smell has haunted my dreams
Your smell recalls memories I had once forgotten
I feel hopeful and lost and happiness and despair
I wish to run away with you
My love, I know you will fall to my feet soon
Barely blossomed, already dying
You used to remind me of me
And maybe still do
Because even without blooms, we grow
We are resilient and hardy and strong
Even if we do not always know it
And one day, my love, we will meet again
And you will live with me
I know I'm not on here often but I was talking to a friend about my life and how I grew up and I just need yall to know that I love yall. I know not many of you are here anymore. I know I've stopped writing. But growing up, yall are really all I had. And I will always have love for yall for that reason. Always.
*squish*
I doubled on desserts tonight
Happy Valentine's Day♡
Felt tall
I hold my breath and wait
And wait and wait and wait
Until I am an empty space
A void
An unsettling thing
Gazes meeting
And then releasing
An unknowable stare
Camarlized onions, lettuce, and rotel dip on a burger!
This is 100% why I'm fat
And also I have ascended to God-hood
God it feels like I haven't been on here in FOREVER!
I had zero space on my previous phone so I had to really prioritize what apps I used (which were like school app, libby, discord, and fb and nothing else because my phone couldn't handle it)
But hi! I've missed everyone
My fiance and kid playing Katamari