Tfw you've dreamt about someone three times in as many weeks... But you don't speak nor have you ever met them :/
I hate who I am. I hate how I am. What the fuck is this over thinking bullshit. Why do you have to do this. Fuck. Can’t you just take it one day at a time and stop looking into the past or the future? Why are you so scared of everything. Don’t make it a self-fulfilling prophecy. My mind has always betrayed me. What’s in there is nothing like reality. How can I trust it.
Realised that it feels awkward using the word “happy” because it’s almost like a nonexistent part of my vocabulary when describing how I feel. So even if I do use it, there’s always doubt and an automatic desire to use a more neutral term. Actually not sure when the last time was that I felt genuinely happy. That’s been a longstanding problem actually. I’ve never been able to conjure up happy memories. Like you know when you’re given the cue to ‘think of a happy moment’ or something. In a way, it’s kind of like a form of perfectionism.
Exactly a year later, i'm still hesitant to use the word. I guess I've never been good with labeling things I feel. But you know, perhaps none of that really matters much. I don't get lonely anymore. And I'm grateful for that. Maybe, finally, the pieces are starting to fall into place.
(via shelteredwillow)
Today my portfolio cracked 100% profit. Over half a graduate teacher salary. I would give it all up to not feel this way or have these thoughts every day.
Let's be realistic here.
I have an addiction to thinking.
Of course I'd have that kind of dream after that kind of night.
I am struggling to fight it.
Typewriter Series #1301 by Tyler Knott Gregson
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Are you happy? My university liaison asked. That's a loaded question. I'm working on it - or at least, some semblance of it.
Typewriter Series #1313 by Tyler Knott Gregson
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I’m reluctant to try again.
My parents are like to my brother, “you and your sister need to take care of each other when we’re no longer here.’ and then he’s like “I’ve tried for 20 years, it’s not going to happen.”
Gross.
Typewriter Series #1300 by Tyler Knott Gregson
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