KALANI AND PEYTON

Halloween Ready

Mather Dance Company - Oceans

A lot of people have been asking me to do something other than contemporary because apparently I’ve been causing too many feelz… so here’s some hip and some hop to the Bad Blood remix - all improv as usual! 

(apparently I have to say it was hopeyswift​ that inspired me to do this so thank u bb)

Did some more dancing today and decided to do one to my girl Hope’s hopeyswift song By My Side (this is totally not a promo but gO BY HER EP >>>>>> x <<<<<<<<< yes ok thank you)  

Sorry for how incredibly mismatched the video is but I did actually partially maybe sort of choreograph it and tried to get the best shot of each part which basically resulted in me having to use so many different shots for the video and I am no professional so let’s just all roll with it shall we chickens. 

I know most of you probably don’t even care about this but it is something I felt the need to post.

These two videos are about 2 and a half years apart - the first in September 2012 when I was still 16 and the second from today, May 2015 at 19. Back in ‘12 I was considered the most advanced dancer at my studio (hard to believe I know, we were a small studio haha). Because of that, even though I was constantly teaching myself new things, I just coasted. It wasn’t until I moved away from home in 2013 and went into a class that was considered advanced until I realised how “un-advanced” I technically was, and I really hated it. So I started putting everything into my dancing. I was away from home, away from my old studio, still dealing with the pain of the previous year and decided to focus everything into dance. It was my outlet and my escape - as it had been for many years previously, except this time it was different. It wasn’t an escape from school work or an escape from mean kids at school, it was an escape from myself. I stretched and danced and stretched and danced until my knees were purple and I could barely even walk. It was my medicine, my recovery. Every emotion, every thought and feeling I had was put into movement. That being said, it was put into movement that was then performed to my bedroom or garage wall, but I have never danced for others, it’s always been for myself.

I guess the reason I am writing this, and posting it with a video that might seem a little irrelevant, is because I am proud of where I am with my dancing right now. I am proud that I can look at these videos and see the difference, see the improvement. Of course there are things to work on - no dancer is ever perfect, but that is beside the point. I worked my butt off so I could feel good when I danced and not come off stage regretting every single piece of choreography I did. I put my all into it and in just 2 and a half years I have come an extremely long way. Other aspects of my life… hmm.. maybe not, but dance is a part of me and that is one part that I can actually say I am proud of.

Hard work really does pay off.  

Did some more dancing today and decided to do one to my girl Hope’s hopeyswift song By My Side (this is totally not a promo but gO BY HER EP >>>>>> x <<<<<<<<< yes ok thank you)  

Sorry for how incredibly mismatched the video is but I did actually partially maybe sort of choreograph it and tried to get the best shot of each part which basically resulted in me having to use so many different shots for the video and I am no professional so let’s just all roll with it shall we chickens. 

dance moms. chloe lukasiak turns appreciation post.

PLEASE DONT SCROLL PAST THIS. I know it’s not “the type of aesthetic your blog needs” but I really need help right now. As some of you know, my mother is no mother. I know I’ve posted plenty of novel sized rants about her on here before but she’s really outdone herself this time. She’s an alcoholic. Pops pain pills like candy. Drives around drunk and stoned out of her mind with my little sister in the car. Swallowed an entire bottle of trazadone, climbed into my little sisters bed and said “I’m just going to die here.” She was nine years old. She was put under psychiatric evaluation for E I G H T D A Y S S T R A I G H T because even the doctors knew she wasn’t fit to be around Chloe anymore. The department of family and children services has been involved since that night and it is literally ON PAPER that Chloe is to not be left alone with her for A N Y reason. DFACs HELPED MY STEP FATHER BASICALLY RUN AWAY WITH MY LITTLE SISTER BECAUSE OF HOW TOXIC MY MOTHER IS. My older sister and I were removed from her care when I was THREE W E E K S OLD. last week, my mother managed to get in front of a judge, didn’t notify any defending parties (me, my stepdad, dfacs, ANY of my family). She was the only person testifying in a case against her. She convinced the judge that my step father was dangerous. That Chloe was homeless and starving. The police showed up at my stepdads house and TOOK my little sister (who was screaming and crying and telling the officers she did not want to go with my mother) and put. Her. In. My. Mothers. Car. To. Take. Back. To. Her. New. Fuckboys. House. That. Is. 6. Hours. Away. From. Her. Father. I tried to call and talk to Chloe right after it happened. My mother wouldn’t answer the phone. I messaged her on Facebook asking to speak to Chloe. This was her reply. There is a court date set for May 5th. My stepfather and I are trying to raise money for a lawyer in that short amount of time. He’s set up a gofundme page (link at the end) where anyone willing to help can donate. Even if you can’t donate, a simple reblog or share on Facebook would be so very greatly appreciated. Please help me bring my little sister home. She’s not safe and I’m fucking terrified. http://dm2.gofund.me/snbghk

“12 year old Emily Beazley has an aggressive form of non Hodgkin’s lymphoma. The family had to make the difficult decision to to stop chemo, and she may not be with us in July, when Taylor Swift is supposed to to play a couple shows here in Chicago.They were in the process of arranging for Emily to meet Taylor backstage, but her parents fear it will be too late. In this interview, when I asked her about Taylor Swift, Emily said, “We would be here all day if I told you all the reasons i like her.” Emily’s parents, Ed and Nadia, told me later that FaceTime would be an ok place for them to meet, too. Or if Taylor was too busy, maybe Taylor could wear some purple and green(the colors of #EmilysEntourage) in her honor at some point soon. Maybe if everyone writes #EmilyBeazley on Taylor Swift’s social media, she will notice? #EmilyStrong”   -From Anthony Ponce’s facebook page. taylorswift

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I really hope you get to meet Emily backstage in Chicago. She is awesome and so fearless. In fact you should try to catch up with her sooner, to really soak in her fabulousness.

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