idk what im doing i just need to type.
My anxiety is killing me. Literally. I keep over thinking the smallest issues. I cant sleep. I can not function around people. I’m literally at the bottom of the barrel right now. What is bothering me the most is that Easter is coming and I have to “be normal” around family. There is no way out. At all. I will be looked at, and judged if I say I need to go to my “room” because I am about to have a fucking heart attack. Seriously, this is days away, and I am literally shaking thinking about it. This /shouldn't/ be a big deal. At all. Yet my fucking body decided its literally the worst thing that could ever happen. Ever. All I can think about is trying to function /normally/ as a family on Easter. I even drank a bit to try to calm myself and sleep tonight because it is all I can think about. Didn't work. It’s 5 in the morning. Typing to nobody I guess helps. So far this has calmed me down a bit. Jesus Christ do I need help. Fuck. Going to type a new post about random shit to calm myself down. I have no followers, but I dont care. I need to release some stress.
