Things I wish I could say to my abusive parents:
"As long as you live under my roof -" = "I don't have the means to be emancipated."
"I brought you into this world -" = "I didn't ask to be alive, and you make me wish I wasn't."
"I clothed you and feed you -" = "You praise yourself for doing the minimum obligation as parants because if you do anything to the contrary than everyone will see you for exactly who you are."
"if you want to be treated better than earn it." = "How could I when anything I do is never good enough for you?"
"why don't you ever talk to us?" = "Because every time you raise your voice I'm terrified."
"You're never home." = "I've never felt safe in this house."
"How can you spend so much time just lying in bed?" = "I'm so depressed that I spent more time planning my death than actually living."
"You ungrateful -" = "I'm sorry I know I don't deserve to be treated this way."
"You're a waste of space -" = "I know, you've made sure I feel this way for as long as I can remember."
"You had so much potential -" = "You snuffed it all out."
"I don't know why you act like I'm the enemy." = "Because I grew up and learned I deserve better."
"You used to be such a happy kid, what happened?" = "You."
I'm sorry for anyone out there that can relate.
I'm sorry for anyone out there that been abused or still is.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who can't get out.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who never felt loved.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who doesn't have anyone to talk to about it.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who is too ashamed to ask for help.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who's been told to 'suck it up'.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who's scared for their lives.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who has ptsd because of it.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who's been made to feel like they're exaggerating.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who never felt safe in their own home.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who doesn't know what healthy love feels like.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who flinchs every time they're touched.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who suffers from depression.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who's triggered by loud voices.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who expects fists instead of hugs.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who waits for the other shoe to drop in every relationship.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who feels like they deserve it.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who feels guilty.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who didn't have a better childhood.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who had to grow up too soon.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who crumbles under self loathing.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who wishes their parents loved them.
I'm sorry for anyone out there who's on the verge.
I'm sorry and I hope it'll get better. Stay strong, stay safe and I hope you get the strength to ask for help and just know that you deserve so, so much better.
