its really comforting to know that all the times i was at my lowest and loneliest in the past the whole time i had my self in the future and present who had survived those things looking back with love and tenderness and wishing desperately to offer comfort…i am my own guardian angel and i can use that knowledge when im struggling now and remember that somewhere there is a version of me that has survived this and is watching me with love and pride and joy in her heart

Masterlist

EDITED: 7/14/18, 10:20pm

Heya howdy doodle doo my dudes, lemme know if there’s anything wrong~ ~404

Headcanons/Imagines/Reactions/Drabbles!:

If they’re a doodler or a writer

Favourite landscapes

Favourite holiday

Favourite seasons

MC can’t sleep due to back pain

MC being extremely flexible

MC insecure about tummy/freckles

Hiking date

MC makes/wears cosplay

Reuniting at the airport

Best friends/platonic

MC has pet birds

MC as a fencer

MC really into death metal

MC as a major snuggler

MC setting up Chanukkah decor

MC and the piano

MC as childhood friend

Engagement rings

MC as a tattoo parlor regular

MC spamming everyone with the Bee movie

MC loses focus easily

Tall MC

Favourite Studio Ghibli movies

Drunk MC/Love reveal

Favourite way to spend time with MC

Positive pregnancy test as holiday gift

MC inviting Unknown to Christmas event (Christmas DLC)

Kinda gross MC

MC being hit on by another person

MC with someone else during holidays (ANGST)

Having to get undercuts

Obese MC (insecure)

Insomniac MC

Extreme sports with MC

MC/Family sass battle

MC with acne scars

MC on period/heavy cramps

Classic rock obsessed MC

MC Randomly speaking Russian

MC afraid of people

MC from a cold country

MC insecure eating in front of others

MC addicted to dabbing

MC with an emo fashion

MC obsessed with Classic Rock

MC as an MMA fighter

MC holed up in their room because of mental health issues

Bilingual MC forgets names for things

MC doesn’t like people spending money on them

MC likes to say “I love you” platonically

MC works the nightshift

Wedding dresses/suits

MC being random at the wrong time

MC asking for a piggy back ride

Mute MC

MC who likes things meticulously clean and in order

6'6 MC

Slightly Telepathic MC

MC always wears heelies

MC with anorexia

MC does martial arts

Short MC has long legs

Hopeless Romantic MC

MC Sick on Christmas

MC as a politician

Reactions to Jaehee/MC friendship

MC picks at scabs and gets scars

MC is an irl princess

Misc. V headcanons

MC as Terry Crews (I hate this so mUCH)

RFA Playing Undertale

Bald MC

MC protecting RFA from being hit on

MC Constantly in hospital/afraid of hospital

RFA at a strip club

RFA as text messages from 404

MC oblivious to flirting

MC not wanting to give birth/okay with adoption

MC in musical having to kiss another actor

Teacher MC

Witchy MC

MBTI Personality Types

404’s Face Claims

MCXDanny DeVito because y'all hate me

Telepathic MC part 2

Winter Soldier/Black Widow MC

MC afraid of needles

RFA reacts to MC who trash talks Rika

Random Korean Culture HCS

RFA: Given blank piece of paper, what would they do?

MC is a Kpop star

MC is into cars

RFA+V+SAERAN Falling hard for MC

Sharing bed for the first time

Part two: Christmas Angst (HAPPY ENDINGS)

Celebrating MC’s birthday

RFA Break ups (ANGST?)

Finding out MC Knows Korean

Reactions to Jaehee x Zen

MC messes up their hair 

Reacting to MC being gay

MC pretends to be married to friend

MC as a Victoria Secret Model

RFA opinions on pineapple on pizza + other foods

RFA as Vampires: Feeding habits

RFA Falling for Male!MC

Going to Pride with MC

MC really loves cats

MC plays instrument fluently

MC randomly wanting to slow dance

MC having younger sibling(s)

MC Loving Stars and the Ocean

MC killing someone

MC with narcolepsy

Dominant (personality) MC

Being called senpai by MC

Ripping MC’s favourite underwear (I don’t consider this NSFW but be warned)

Adopted MC Feels Replaced by Family

Shy at first but comes out of her shell MC

MC pregnant with quadruplets

MC as professional cha-cha dancer

MC with an over-protective sister

MC having panic attack in public

MC With Sensory Overload

MC Accidentally taking a drug

Smart but Silly MC

MC Late to work due to frick frack (not NSFW)

Christmas gifts for MC

MC as a seasonal worker (Saeyoung x mc)

What they smell like

Camping Trip (Yoosung x MC)

Cooking with the RFA

Their Quirks? (Small mysme x bnha crossover)

Music tastes

MC with a child

Saeyoung/Saeran x MC fluff

(Not) Too sexy for my shirt (Saeyoung x MC)

Arms (Lyric drabble [Saeyoung x MC])

Nightmares (Jumin x MC)

Unrequited Love (Saeyoung [Saeran x MC])

First words to Deaf!MC

Gimme a Kiss (NSFW-ISH?) (Jihyun x MC)

MC afraid of flying (Zen x MC) (Jihyun x MC)

MC with winter blues (Jihyun x MC) (Zen x MC)

MC in a coma

Saeran/Yoosung with MC’s puppy

The stage that couldn’t love (Zen x MC) (TW)

MC with an identical twin

MC who is able to imitate voices

Choi Boi’s birthday (6/11/18)

Saeran’s Corner:

Annoying Unknown

Annoying Unknown Part 2

Annoying Unknown Part 3

Partners in Crime

Ice Skating

Playground Fun?

Biting Kink (SFW)

Tsundere Saeran

MC picking their lip

Stupid thought of Four’s

Morning kisses

Thirsty MC with good ending Saeran (NSFW-ISH?)

Virgin MC (NSFW)

Wanweird

DEFINITION FICS:

Chimerical - Jihyun

Eunoia - Jihyun

FICS:

Saeran being called Edgelord

Saeran singing “When Christmas Comes to Town”

Saeran/MC being intimate when Saeyoung walks in

RFA+V+SAERAN Reacting to seeing Saeyoung on mission/date

Saeyoung cutting off Zen’s ponytail

The MC’s

HIDDEN TREASURES {Treasure Hunter!AU}:

Chapter 1

SOULMATE!AU:

In the Right Direction {VxMC}

Not Afraid of the Night {JuminxMC}

Leopard-print Bandaids {VanderwoodxMC}

RFSPOOK:

Jaehee as Wonder Woman (Art)

Yoosung as Peter Pan (Art)

Treat or treating habits/favourite candy

Family Themes Costumes

MC Never celebrating Halloween

Couples Costumes

Werewolf!RFA+

Haunted House- Jumin

Ghost?- Saeran

Haunting Pranks

MC Exploring an abandoned house

MC and Halloween Rituals

Ouija Board Mystake- Saeyoung

Reactions to Haunted House

404′s Ridiculous AU’s:

Duck AU

Sock AU

Stock Image AU

Car AU

Meme AU

Lamp AU

Coat AU

Restaurant/Fast food AU

Fruit AU

Homestuck AU

Dog AU

Shrek AU

VALENTINES FICS:

Saeyoung

Saeran

Jumin

Yoosung

Zen

Jaehee

V

Valentines (2018)

EASTER FIC:

Easter

NSFW:

Jealousy (NSFW)

Pegging (NSFW)

Massages (NSFW)

MC making breakfast with nothing but a t-shirt on (NSFW)

7 mins in heaven/Spin the bottle (Possible NSFW?)

MC walks in on them masturbating (NSFW)

Masochist MC (NSFW)

Getting Caught Being Intimate by Child (NSFW?)

MC calling penises by weird names (NSFW-ISH?)

Saeran smut (NSFW)

MC loves keyhole sweaters (Light NSFW?)

Nymphomaniac MC

First Time Having Sex

What kind of porn they’d watch

Jumin smut (NSFW)

404 Cosplay:

404 Saeran Cosplay part 1

404 Saeran Cosplay part 2

404 Saeran Cosplay part 3

404 Saeran Cosplay part 4

404 Saeran Cosplay Gifs

SUBMISSIONS/ADMIN PERSONAL:

Literally a completely self-indulgent Fouran fic

404 Personal Emojis

404: Yoomaid Drawing

Beautiful-mystic-mess/404: Fidget Spinner AU?

404: Saeran the Jolly Green Giant

ALL SUBMISSIONS CAN BE FOUND TAGGED: #submission

ALL PERSONAL CAN BE TAGGED EITHER BY: #admin art #my art (sometimes can be found under any variation of #4s doodles)

Anyone: u ok Me; yeah just thinking about how I’ll never be this young again and about how most of my youth has been lost to depression loneliness and self doubt lol

wow jackie you shouldn’t have

Ain que fofo Wonkyun ^^

i’m so in love with this look

i love

get you a man that can do both

MASTERLIST

WRITTEN REACTIONS

The boys’ kissing styles (Shownu, Wonho, Kihyun & Jooheon)

The boys’ kissing styles (Minhyuk, Hyungwon & I.M)

Girlfriend wants to cuddle (Kihyun & Minhyuk)

Girlfriend going through a rough time (Wonho & I.M)

When the boys are horny (Minhyuk, Wonho & Shownu)

When the boys are horny (Kihyun, Jooheon, Hyungwon & I.M)

Girlfriend being stressed and going through a rough time (Wonho, Minhyuk, Kihyun & I.M)

Minhyuk during your first time

Shownu during your first time

Kihyun during your first time

Wonho during your first time

First time with Hyungwon

First time with I.M

First time with Jooheon

The boys watching their crush waking up in the morning on TV (all members)

The boys reaction to their S/O moaning for the first time (Minhyuk, I.M, Shownu, Jooheon)

Innocent girlfriend singing a dirty song (Shownu, I.M, Minhyuk & Jooheon)

I.M trying to get you back after a break up

Minhyuk trying to get you back after a break up

Kinks (Hyungwon, Kihyun & Minhyuk)

Kinks (Shownu, Wonho, Jooheon & I.M)

Girlfriend has a nightmare (Shownu, Wonho & Minhyuk)

Girlfriend has a nightmare (Kihyun, Jooheon, Hyungwon & I.M)

Girlfriend is horny and they have no idea (Kihyun, Minhyuk, Wonho & Hyungwon)

Girlfriend is horny and they have no idea (Shownu, Jooheon & I.M)

Martial Arts girlfriend feeling insecure (I.M, Minhyuk, Wonho & Jooheon)

The boys’ reaction to a member coming out to them as gay (Shownu, Wonho & Kihyun)

The boys reaction to a member confessing to them (Wonho, Kihyun, Shownu & Minhyuk)

Girlfriend accidentally grinds on them during a make out session (Minhyuk, Kihyun, Wonho & Hyungwon)

Girlfriend accidentally grinds on them during a make out session (Shownu, Jooheon & I.M)

Best friend/crush being a very affectionate person (Shownu, Kihyun, I.M & Wonho)

Girlfriend saying lovey-dovey stuff to them (Shownu, Minhyuk & Kihyun)

Girlfriend gives them a back hug (Kihyun & I.M)

Girlfriend walks away during a fight (Kihyun & I.M)

Girlfriend can hula (Shownu, Wonho, Jooheon & I.M)

Foreign celebrity crush dancing to Vibrato by Stellar (Jooheon, Hyungwon & Wonho)

Foreign celebrity crush dancing to Vibrato by Stellar (Kihyun, Shownu, Minhyuk & I.M)

Girlfriend wants them to buy her pads (Wonho, Kihyun & I.M)

Dating a girl with no experience with love & relationships (I.M, Jooheon & Kihyun)

Nephew being over-protective over you (Jooheon, Kihyun, Hyungwon & Minhyuk)

Sex with Jooheon

You cry on stage while performing a slow song after you had an argument with them the day before (Wonho, Minhyuk & Hyungwon)

When you start to get sick with your voice almost gone (Wonho, Jooheon, Hyungwon & Kihyun)

Making out and you want to go further (Kihyun, Wonho, Shownu & I.M)

When you sneak up behind them and smack their booty (Shownu, Wonho & I.M)

When they see you in sexy lingerie (Wonho, I.M, and Minhyuk)

You’re making out and a member walks in (Hyungwon, I.M & Shownu)

You’re making out and a member walks in (Wonho, Jooheon, Kihyun & Minhyuk)

They walk in on you masturbating (Jooheon, Hyungwon & Shownu)

They walk in on you masturbating (Kihyun, I.M, Wonho & Minhyuk)

They feel insecure and you comfort them (Shownu, Wonho, Minhyuk & Jooheon)

Amusement park date (Wonho, Jooheon & Minhyuk)

Hyungwon trying to get you back after a misunderstood breakup

Random guy won’t leave you alone (Wonho, Kihyun & Jooheon)

Random Guy won’t leave you alone (Shownu, Minhyuk, Hyungwon & I.M)

You’re wearing a short dress in public and they’re frustrated (Hyungwon, Changkyun, Wonho & Kihyun)

Not so ‘touchy-feely’ girlfriend suddenly attacks with hugs and kisses (Shownu, I.M, Wonho, Minhyuk)

Meeting the Parents for the first time finding out they are the first boys that are brought home (Kihyun, I.M, Wonho, Jooheon)

When you think you’re not good enough for them (Wonho, Hyungwon, Kihyun & Jooheon)

Girlfriend is a witch (I.M, Kihyun, Wonho & Shownu)

Dates (Wonho, Minhyuk & I.M)

The boys coming home to see their girlfriend cooking and dancing in only their underwear and a top (Wonho, I.M & Hyungwon)

Girlfriend walks away during a fight (Wonho, Hyungwon & Minhyuk)

The boys when jealous (Jooheon, Shownu & I.M)

Girlfriend is obsessed with bows (Minhyuk, Jooheon, Shownu & I.M)

Their crush likes someone else and asks for advice but gets heart broken (Minhyuk, Kihyun & Jooheon)

Elder couple being sweet to you and him (not dating) (Kihyun, Jooheon, Minhyuk & I.M)

Elder couple being sweet to you and him (not dating) (Shownu, Wonho & Hyungwon)

Girlfriend asks them to take their shirt off when about to go to sleep (not sexual) (Wonho, Minhyuk, I.M & Hyungwon)

When you have a complex about your older sister and feel insecure (Shownu, I.M, Minhyuk & Jooheon)

You tell them you are pregnant with your firstborn (I.M, Hyungwon, Shownu & Minhyuk)

You (their crush) broke your leg and they overreact (I.M, Kihyun & Wonho)

Their crush likes someone else and asks for advice but gets heart broken (I.M, Shownu, Wonho & Hyungwon)

Male sunbae (senior) inappropriately touches a female hoobae (newbie) (Shownu, Wonho, Kihyun & I.M)

They are being overprotective brothers when you go on a date (Minhyuk, Wonho, I.M & Hyungwon)

When you’re insecure about your acne (Wonho, Hyungwon, Kihyun & Minhyuk)

In the mind of Kihyun when he sees his crush

In the mind of Shownu when he sees his crush

In the mind of Jooheon when he sees his crush

In the mind of Changkyun when he sees his crush

In the mind of Hyungwon when he sees his crush

In the mind of Wonho when he sees his crush

Threeway with KiHyuk & HyungWonho

What would cause I.M, Wonho, Kihyun & Minhyuk to argue with you

Wonho trying to get you back after a break up

The boys reaction to their Idol Crush doing a cover of their song

You have a wet dream (Wonho, Shownu & I.M)

Wife cries and runs out during a fight (Minhyuk, Wonho, Kihyun & Hyungwon)

MONSTA X AS BOYFRIENDS

Minhyuk

Shownu

Wonho

Kihyun

Jooheon

Hyungwon

I.M

GIF REACTIONS

How they would make love to you (all members/NSFW-ish)

How they would have sex with you (all members/VERY NSFW)

MTL’S

MTL to be the horniest

MTL to date a chubby girl

MTL to date a short girl

MTL to date a perverted girl

MTL to date a tall girl

MTL to date a foreign girl

MTL to wait to have sex until marriage

MTL to date a tomboy

MTL to date a girl who likes to stay home, sleep and play games

MTL to like a girl with Entomophobia

MTL to like curly or straight hair (Most-Curly, Least-Straight)

MTL to date a girl with a lot of tattoos

MTL who wouldn’t mind if their gf has small eyes

MTL to date an older girl

MTL to be the most excited to hear their wife is pregnant

MTL to like a girl who laughs easily

MTL to like a cute childish girl with a mature side

MTL to have sex in the shower while gf is on her period

MTL to try pegging

OTHER

Boobs or Booty?

Biggest to smallest dicks?

when your hype squad is monsta x

the most touching speech in this century (cr:onehope)

i’m gonna reblog sad tablo bee every time it’s on my dash

I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT THIS