To Love or To Let Go (Part 3 of A Tale of Longing and Lost Love)
So my friend is staying with us, she said she needed to be somewhere else because her home is too much to bear with all the memories she had with him.
She was heartbroken, but also full of hope.
The man she had an intense affair with, had reached out to her, amidst the chaos of his work, he reached out to her crying, that he wanted to abandon everything, to come back and be with her. He, underneath the foreign skies, the endless seas he sailed, the dangerous lands he walked on, felt that he has finally found his HOME.
She is who he wanted to spend the rest of his life with.
The thought made her indescribably happy.
Selfishly, she wants him to be with her. She wants to spend the rest of her days with him. She knew, HE is The One.
But she is also conflicted. She also harbors a sense of sadness, and dread.
She did not want him to keep him from his ambitions. Nor wanted to change the trajectory of his life. He has so much potential to change the world, and so much of that potential cannot go to waste.
She knew if he did come to her, down the line, he would resent her. She knew his work is his love, his passion, and his first priority. Before he met her, he had all the world for him to explore. Why would she take that away from him?
Would she want him to come and be with her? Or to tell him not to come and live out his ambition?
To simply, let her go. And she would let him go. And just live out the rest of their days in memories shared in those 4 days.
It is almost asking if she would choose her heart both times over.
My heart breaks for her. For them.
What to tell a heart that seems to already know the answer?
We sat in silence, her tears had dried long ago. She has now spent the remainder of the day by our couch, gazing outside the window, watching the sunset. We all knew, there is not much time. She has to make a decision. And hopefully, the right one.