THIS IS SO IMPORTANT, READ IT PLEASE

If you are going through a hard time and think you need to end your life for it to disappear, read this please, it’s important. Maybe at first it just looks like I’m blaming you for what is happening, but read until the end. Please

I'm tired. I'm sick and tired of people who think death is the only way left. It's so sad. "It's the only way  I'll stop suffering." Well, you know what? You will. But you will also miss your sibling's wedding, uncountable trips with your friends and family, holidays, fun and joy, and achieving everything you set your mind on. Maybe you will stop suffering, but that simple action will make your parents,  siblings, friends, boyfriend or girlfriend,... Start their own. A suffering that has no end. Because I know that you feel like YOUR suffering is the one that will never end, but you have no idea what that is. You will ruin all your loved ones' lives. And they won't be able to be happy anymore. You are taking away their happiness: you. And that is selfish. That is the most selfish thing anyone can do. Because your suffering can end, you just have to want it to end, and stop pitying yourself.

I don't know what happened to you to make you think that killing yourself is going to solve things; maybe you lost someone, maybe you are being bullied, maybe you don't have any dreams left, maybe you look in the mirror and see just a horrible monster, maybe your partner just left your side. But these are just excuses: the real and only reason you are contemplating this idea is because you don't love yourself enough. If you loved yourself you would know that this person you lost still hopes you to become the greatest at everything, if you loved yourself you would know that this fucking bully is just jealous of you and he will not become anyone worthy of mention in life, if you loved yourself you would know that dreams are created and that you still have all your life to begin from scratch, if you loved yourself you would know that you are beautiful just the way you are, if you loved yourself you would know that this person who you loved so much if they were 'the one' they will come back. If you loved yourself enough you would know that YOU ARE IMPORTANT. To your family, to your friends, to your partner, to your future children... To yourself. You are in this world for a reason, because you have to be. Because you are meant to do great things, whatever they are. YOU ARE IMPORTANT, BEAUTIFUL & GREAT. You have greatness in yourself. You are a hero.

When you realize all these things, you'll see that every single day is a good day to start over. I went through all these things,  all of them. I have been in that situation where you don't see an exit sign anywhere. I know perfectly well how it feels, believe me. But I couldn't let all the bad things win over me. What about the children I would now never have? What about my best friend who would blame herself for not talking to me one last time? What about my sister who would not have a companion growing up? What about my parents who would cry every single day? What about all these people that I hadn't met yet and all those places I hadn't gone? What about all the things I had left to do? I just couldn't do it. I couldn't do that to them,... to myself. I couldn't give up.

I am not blaming you for feeling this way, don't misunderstand me. The only thing I am blaming you for is for feeling like death is the best option here. If you feel like this because someone made you feel worthless, that person is meaningless. That person doesn't deserve a single second of your attention. Life is made for living it and spending moments having fun and laughing and dancing, not for wasting them on people who aren't worth it. Life is wonderful, full of opportunities and amazing people. Happiness depends on yourself,  on how you see the world. Sometimes things get hard, I know,  but it's in your hands to make it right again. Look for help if you need it, talk to your friends or family. You can make it. Don't let your fears overcome your dreams. Don't let your inner darkness win over your joy. You are strong. You are not alone. I believe in you, and now it's time for you to believe in yourself.

Please, love yourself. And if you read this and feel like nothing has sense anymore, talk to me. I will always be here to help you. I love you, xx