(is anyone even still on tumblr)
(considering bringing my blog back to life, etc.)
FOLLOW UP: 2021′S RESOLUTIONS
HEY HEY HELLO HELLO, WHAT IS UP -- this is even... later... than last year’s... but it’s still within the realm of January and I’m finally in a pensive mood, so WHATEVER, MAN!!!
As I’ve kind of already alluded, these are harder to write the older that I get -- not because I don’t have a lot to say, but because I don’t feel the pressure to write it down.
I’m at the point in my life where I’ve just learned to trust myself to internalize important life lessons as they come, in other words; if it’s really as important as I think it is, then I would have already let myself feel it and integrate it accordingly. The most consistent part of me -- the reason why these posts exist -- is that I insist on being better, after all... And, even when I trip up, that desire is always going to be there, no matter what.
BUT. I like reading these posts, and to have something to read I need to write something. SO! HERE GOES!
TL;DR I got into fanfiction this year and somehow wrote 80k-ish words of Sk8 the Infinity in 7 months, on top of 30-ishk of original content. L-LOL.
Also, work and self-discovery stuff + notes on living on my own.
FOLLOW UP: 2020′s RESOLUTIONS
I MOVED IN THE MIDDLE OF WRITING THIS, SO MY TARDINESS IS EVEN MORE EGREGIOUS THIS YEAR... SORRY... SCREAMS
but at least i actually produced art, specifically for this banner (?? : D < ???)
I guess what’s changed is that I’ve grown significantly more private online-- to a point where it feels strange and indulgent, putting everything in one post and leaving it out in the open. As I’d stated in my 2019 follow-up, a lot of my motivation was accountability; which is to say, if I wrote everything I’d learned and wanted to achieve in the year, I’d be obligated to my word.
But in years past, I’ve always ended the year on a note of discontent following a revelatory shift in mindset. This year, I felt that I’d learned very little in spite having done A Lot. Maybe it’s the plague that’s warping my sense of time; or, maybe it’s that I’m too distracted with my work. But, either or: it was a psychologically trying year, but an existentially grounded one. I’m less motivated to write these posts because I’m a lot more comfortable in knowing what I’ve done and a lapse of memory won’t erase these accomplishments. Further to that, my ambition is self-sustaining. I don’t need to rat myself out to keep myself honest, because no one has anything to gain or lose from my self-improvement except for Me.
BUT!!! A TRADITION IS A TRADITION, HOWEVER BRIEF AND LACKING IN ANGST.
MOST OF THIS IS CAREER STUFF. WITH SOME ART. ALSO WRITING. (KARATE CHOPS). THANKS FOR READING!
FOLLOW UP: 2019′S RESOLUTIONS
AYYY HELLO HELLO IT IS I... CAE... HERE AGAIN TO JOURNAL ABOUT MY LIFE ((and then disappear for another year))!! YEAHHHHHH!!!!!
+ last thing I was working on in 2019!
similar-ish dealio from last time in that there's way more introspection than art and writing but NOTHING NEW HERE ASIDE FROM A SMALL META LOOKBACK ON THE DECADE. ALSO LIKE. A REMINDER THAT i'm not really on tumb tumb much, I live on Discord and you should find me there.
! ANYWAY !
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It's hard to believe that I've been doing these write-ups for nine years now. It feels like just yesterday that I started my first entry in a fit of nervous panic-- that I knew I'd learned something important about myself that year and that I had to write it down lest I forget the work I put into the resolution.
(I See You, Baby Cae. I know what you were Thinking.)
But, here's the thing: in the following years, I'll discover something equally groundbreaking about myself. I'll be horrified by this discovery and Haul Ass to Fix It. Then, I'll have assumed that I figured out the Answer to All my Issues, so I should be Okay now... Right?
FOLLOW UP: 2018′S RESOLUTIONS
This is SUPER FUCKING LATE, but at the !!VERY LEAST!! my doodle is finished this year >: 3 c and also, it has like... the correct year notated.
In spite feeling unproductive, I accomplished enough this year for it to be considered Good. After some thought, I’ve categorized these improvements as follows:
- learning not to hate myself
- moving out
- writing and drawing (for reals this time)
The only resolution on this list was “moving out.” Nevertheless, these posts have developed beyond setting a goal and more to the fiddle of self-reflection for its own sake. SO.
I'll start with the heavy stuff and then move onto the art stuff!
There isn’t a lot of art btw, but there’s some underneath the WALLS of TEXT.
does anyone follow this blog anymore
I SURE HOPE NOT, AS I’VE ONLY BEEN USING THIS TO DO MY ANNUAL journal entries
anyway, it’s a great time to remind everyone that i’m still alive i guess-- albeit not... on tumblr. ;^O
my OCs exist here on a weebly that’ll get updated more regularly in 2019
also, add me on discord!!! I LOVE RP-ing!!!
CAE!!!#9513
THANKS.....
FOLLOW UP: 2017′S RESOLUTIONS
another year, another round-up… SO, WITHOUT FURTHER DELAY, THE ANNUAL POST, WHERE I! OH! CAE-SU! post a bad doodle, ramble a lot about personal things and then disappear for another year.
if i were to describe my approach to 2017, it was cautious practicality. i’d decided that, regardless what happened, i’d grit through it. when fortune favors the prepared, you avoid disappointment by rejecting expectation. assume the worst, so whatever’s better is a pleasant surprise.
my only new year’s resolution was to get a full time job with benefits, at a bare minimum of 20 an hour.
the results in themselves were (for lack of a better description)
Surprisingly Good. i got more than that. i got a car. i got a raise. i bought myself a phone. i even go drinking with my coworkers?
like, the year in itself felt like a series of shonen power punches. i’d workworkworkworkworkwork, just to decrease the possibility of failure. i didn’t expect Good, i just wanted to avoid the Bad.
but, at last quarter of 2017, i came to a series of realizations, all of which can be summed with the following arc words:
“you are more than the debt you feel you’ve incurred in your life, you’re also the love and the success that have helped continue to define who you are” (THANKS MILLY!!!)
“taking a punch shouldn’t be a point of pride. when you tolerate something like that, it means you find it acceptable. is it acceptable?” (THANKS CHIRA!!!)
SO. WITHOUT FURTHER ADO…
a read more tag:
FOLLOW UP: 2016′s RESOLUTIONS
i continue to bother with last doodles of the year for some reason
SO. i didn’t write down my resolutions for 2016 but that’s okay because i only had one: to obtain a full-time position in HR.
(and i did it)
(BTW)
this entry will be way more boring than prior years, as it’s way less existential in nature. i guess the overall feeling is contentment, but dissatisfaction because what has contentment ever done for me but made me complacent lmao--
THANK YOU IF YOU CHOOSE TO READ THIS.
OR IF YOU SCROLL PAST A HUGE BLOCK OF TEXT YOU WILL COME UPON ME, CURATING MY OUTFITS OF THE DAY AS I DID LAST YEAR.
Anonymous asked:
Hey. I managed to get my hands on one of your beautiful design on dA and was wondering. Do you allow your designs to be used commercially? Not the art itself. But the design if given proper credit. Im writing a story and want to include them. But wanted to make sure its okay with you.
oh man definitely go ahead :^0 let me know what you come up w/!!!!! i’m excited to see! * _ *
FOLLOW UP: 2015’S RESOLUTIONS
my art output was so pathetic this year that this banner serves no purpose aside from visual cohesion. BUT VISUAL COHESION IS V. IMPORTANT TO ME. SO! HERE WE GO!
but it is as the old chinese saying goes...
“plans cant catch up to changes~”
-nie, 12/30/15 1:02AM
this will be all introspection w/ regard to personality development b/c i like keeping these kinds of things on file. there is also a selfie compilation if you scroll fast enough too.
THANK YOU IN ADVANCE FOR YOUR PATIENCE! IF YOU SO CHOOSE TO READ THIS! or if u look at my selfies? IDK!
chaddiecakes reblogged
TOJI IS ETERNAL
another small print for ax2k15! i’ll do a reprint of my satoshi kon pixels too!
FIND ME! TRADE ME THINGS!
ALSO BECAUSE TUMBLR IS ASS here is the not resized:
chaddiecakes reblogged
Slow Emergency – Gold Motel
CAN WE MEET I LOVE UR EVA+UTENA PRINTS IM DOWN THE ROW FROM LILLY ILL COMEVISIT
HOLY SHIT I LOVE YOUR ART YES PLEASE
HOLYSHIT THIS IS WHAT I GET FOR NOT CHECKING TUMBLR UHM YES ??? LET’S MEET ?? *frantically writes down your table number*
rainingcats replied to your post:what table will you be at?
visit me too cae ^^
omg alu is it creepy that i already wrote your table number down because
(it’s already down)
(HI)
Anonymous asked:
what table will you be at?
AW SHUCKS, i will not be tabling BUT! i will be wandering (especially by smiliees ‘ table at I66/67)!!! the prints are for trade and food and doodles HO HO HO.
LMK IF WE SHOULD MEET, OR IF I SHOULD LEAVE A THING W/ LILY (hi lily) AS I DISAPPEAR INTO THE CROWDS, OKAY!!
chaddiecakes reblogged
you have no idea utena, you have… no idea…
MSpaint! thank you 2 gunforfeet who helped me through this Long and Arduous process.
&& AYYY AS PER TRADITION, i’m GOING TO AX2015! however i WILL NOT TABLE! just wandering and trading out prints of the above and maybe an FMA:B print if i get the time! SAY HI TO ME, OKAY!!!
TOJI IS ETERNAL
another small print for ax2k15! i’ll do a reprint of my satoshi kon pixels too!
FIND ME! TRADE ME THINGS!
ALSO BECAUSE TUMBLR IS ASS here is the not resized: