find a guy who loves you, sober or not sober.
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hplyrikz
““I could not tell you if I loved you the first moment I saw you, or if it was the second or third or fourth. But I remember the first moment I looked at you walking toward me and realized that somehow the rest of the world seemed to vanish when I was with you.””
— Cassandra Clare, Clockwork Prince (via hplyrikz)
Source: hplyrikz.com
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what about this theory. the fear of not being enough. and the fear of being ‘too much.’ are exactly the same fear. the fear of being you.
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lesbiari18-deactivated20170206
I’m that girlfriend who never keeps my hands off you. I’m always grabbing your face, and kissing you slowly. I’m always having my legs around you when we’re sitting. I’m always holding your hand, and kissing it while you drive. I’m always sneaking in kisses when you least expect it. I’m always smacking or grabbing your cute ass. I’m always looking at you, and thinking “how did I get so lucky?.” I’m always telling you how cute you are and then attacking you with kisses. I’m always wanting more of you even when I already have you.
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“If you’re going to fall in love with me then please love all of me. Don’t just love the side of me that’s sweet, the side of me that’s caring and gentle. Fall in love with my hard edges too, fall in love with my grumpy moods and my sad nights. Fall in love with my deepest insecurities, not just my deepest desires. I want someone who’s going to love me even when I’m breaking down on some nights, someone who’s going to hold me through it. And please don’t love me just because I make you feel special, love me for me. Because you simply just do. I don’t want someone who’s going to fall in love with me and not love all of me.”
— fall in love with all of me (Via tullipsink)
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ced-mosby-deactivated20211018
Mga mata ay pagod na naman
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“Once you get a taste of what it’s like to sleep in the arms of someone you love, sleeping alone is never enough.”
— “I’m missing you tonight” - Kaceanne
Hay i miss sleeping with you.
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r-a-m-m-s-t-e-i-n
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you’ll be ok. chill. just go to see sleep now.
i needed the reassurance. hehe thanks.
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I lied and said I was busy. I was busy, but not in a way people understand. I was busy taking deeper breaths, I was busy silencing irrational thoughts, I was busy calming a racing heart, I was busy telling myself I am ok
This is what happens when you let your world revolve around someone. You cry yourself to sleep when they no longer give you the attention that you're used to.
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“Sometimes when you were hurting, all you wanted was for someone to come and hold you until you stopped shaking. And all too often, no one would come. And so, you learned to hold yourself. And so, you learned to find sanctuary within your own mind. And so, like this, you learned to survive.”
— Sue Zhao (via blossomfully)
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“Destressed by STILTS Calatagan Batangas”
So last day of work, niyaya ko mga frennys ko na mag beach pambawas man lang konti sa mga iniisip haha. So wala talagang plano, basta nakita lang namin sa fb yang stilts then naisipan namin na dyan na pumunta. Medyo nagkabadtripan kami nung papunta kasi mga pasaway hahaha aga ng call time tapos 3:30 pa pala meron bus papunta calatagan. Then ayun hanggang pagdating namin sa resort hindi pa din nagpapasinan ang mga mumshie kaya problemado ako kasi ako kumakausap sa front desk haha. Pero ayun ok naman. Tas niyaya ko sila mag snorkling kasi diba, why not? Tapos after swimming swimming nalang sa beach and sa pool hanggang sa nagkayayaan uminom. Taena ang tirik ng araw kami umiinom ng empi sa cottage hahaha kakaloka. Then nung mga may tama na kami, pumunta kaming dagat tapos ang layo ng nilakad namin kasi low tide na pupush pa din sana namin magswimming don kaso ano puro na seaweeds saka mga basag na corals and bato, mej masakit na din sya sa paa lakaran. Kaya ayun ending sa pool kami nagpababa ng tama. Pero pagdating ng 5pm syempre kahit lahat kami ayaw pa namin, kailangan na namin bumalik ng manila at umuwi kasi may mga pasok pa sila beshi.
Pero i’ll definitely go back here. Overnight na next time (sana payagan, baby pa eh hahaha char)
My life recently is full of sleep. Sleep and food sana kaso di ako nagkakakain recently, dont know i think im depressed again? Hahaha so ano nga bang bago? Ayun i just left my job nanaman because (sorry sir i just had to ang bigat pa din kasi hanggang ngayon) my trusted and only friend left sa company already left, and ginigipit ako ng boss ko. Ayun, ang funny kasi nakakataas ng confidence na pinipigilan ka umalis kasi he likes the way i work and me as a person daw. Pero nung dumating na sa point na, sinabihan nya ko na ihohold nya lahat ng credentials ko kapag umalis ako parang nawalan ako ng gana bigla magtrabaho? Scaring people doesn’t motivate them to do better sa work. Ok? So yon, after nun naisipan ko magresign para di masyadong masakit kapag tumagal pa ko there tapos ihohold lang din naman credentials ko and wala ako makukuha.
Aaaaand honestly, i feel bad kasi nagresign ako 2 weeks after ng promotion ko ulit and i was being given na ng increase na dati ko pa inaantay sana. Pero ayun, minsan pala yung motivation na inaantay mo pag late dumating di na din sya nakakamotivate. Kaya sobrang disappointed and frustrated din boss ko sakin kasi nga he was training me daw, preparing me for higher position then bigla ako nagresign. And another reason is sa lahat daw ng binibigyan ng increase ako lang ang umayaw.
Pero kasi in my point of view, how can you work if you’re no longer happy sa work mo and sa work place? Tapos sinuportahan pa ko ng parents ko, ayun tambay hahahaha.
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“Do you love me enough that I may be weak with you? Everyone loves strength, but do you love me for my weakness? That is the real test.”
— Alain de Botton, Essays in Love
Source: booksnquotes.com
So last week, was a hell week? Kasi naparesign ako bigla. i dont know why, basta ang alam ko lang di na ko masaya and masyado na akong kinakain ng trabaho ko na di naman dapat. And na nawawalan na ko ng buhay outside the plant. Also ang sobrang toxic na nila. Ayun, inipit ko sa endorsement notebook ko yung resignation letter ko nung morning, kaso busy si plant manager kaya nakauwi na ko’t lahat di nya pa din nababasa. Then the next day pag pasok ko ang ganda ng bati nya sakin. “Good morning kc! we will talk later” so syempre ako alam ko na yun kung tungkol saan. Pero pinakausap nya muna ako sa HR, tinatanong ako kung bakit and kung ano pwede nilang gawin to make me stay. Actually inaalok nila ako ng ibang posisyon para di ako umalis ahahaha. Kaso i said no kasi same people lang din naman makakasama ko and im tired of them na. Hanggang sa tinanong nya ko kung final na ba yung decision ko and i said “oo naman po, di ko naman po ipiprint yan kung hindi.” tapooooooos ayun kinausap na ko ni plant manager since hindi ako naconvince ni HR to stay haha.
Ayun ending, binalik sakin resignation ko. Di ako pinayagan umalis. So ito araw araw pa din akong nagaadjust, araw araw pa din akong stressed, araw araw pa din akong badtrip, araw araw pa din akong pinagiinitan ng mga beshies and momshies there na galit sakin without me doing anything, araw araw pa din akong sinisimangutan, and araw araw ko pa ding niloloko sarili ko na ok pa ko kahit alam ko naman ng hindi.. HAHAHA