Lame.

Mum was going to be coming down to stay with us over Easter and help with some deep cleaning / sorting / organising for bub. Unfortunately she’s been sick and still recovering so that’s looking increasingly less likely.

🤷🏻‍♀️ Idk. Predictable / not predictable.

I’ve worn the faces off all the cards

I’m gonna take it with me, when I go

Pregnancy hormones are something else. Isaac just left for a work trip today, and for whatever reason it just really set me off into “abandonment” territory in a way that hasn’t happened for ages… just wow. The mind is a wild thing.

And nothing could get in,

But nothing could be born

Mum offered to come and help with some cleany / nesty stuff over Easter before the baby comes, but as the days get closer she’s been giving herself a lot of outs e.g. “Just see how you feel closer to the time, you might prefer to rest” “You might find you have most things done by then” etc. Of course this may well be true, but as I’m working full time up until 3 weeks before my due date there probably will be some “nice to have done but not essential” things left…

I dunno. Meanwhile my MIL has helped us clear the whole front yard in a working bee over summer, offered to buy us a baby monitor, has been helping scour facebook marketplace for second hand stuff etc… The contrast is a bit stark at times.

Mostly I think I’ve done well at keeping my expectations in check - mum was very excited initially we were having a baby and making a lot of supportive noises, but as always the follow through in action hasn’t really been there. I didn’t buy in this time the way I did for my wedding, so now that shes beginning to show signs of reneging I’m not feeling blindsided the way I did then. I’m keeping a more open attitude of “anything is a bonus”.

Still sucks of course, but I know Isaac and his fam will show up for me at least. It’s more than an awful lot of people have.