VIRGINIA MONOLOGUES

@garbagegeuse / garbagegeuse.tumblr.com

Vicky. Chicago. Mid 20s disgruntled queer baby.
"I'll tell you about it because I am here and you are distant."
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just want to share some thoughts about finding peace.

as someone with a lot of trauma in my childhood i have spent so long and so much grief wishing i could go back and time and save that little kid, because that kid so desperately needed saving, but i’ve always thought it’s too late, bc it all already happened, and no one saved her, so she’ll never be saved and she’ll never be okay,

and i’ve spent the second half of my life mourning the first half.

but my therapist recently made me realize, that little kid is still inside me. i was her, and in a lot of ways i still am her, because i still carry her pain. it’s not too late. she needed an adult to listen to her, and i am that adult. i’m listening. i can tell her that none of it was her fault, and she can believe me, and i can believe me.

she’ll be okay, because i’ll make sure of it, and then I’ll be okay. you can be okay. if you find yourself carrying a lot of hurt, and blaming yourself, or anyone, think of the child who went through that. because no matter what you think of yourself, you know a child didn’t deserve that. and it’s time an adult told them so.

Since I posted those journals I drew in second grade, and so many people are messaging me telling me they relate, I thought I’d share this again. Realizing I can be the adult I needed as a child really changed my life. It was the moment of revelation I thought only happened in therapy on TV and in books and movies.

Every time I feel grief over the things my childhood trauma and mental illness stole from me, I don’t have to push it away anymore and try to move on without addressing it. I can think of that little me, and I can say “it’s okay. I’m an adult, and I’m listening. This isn’t your fault. You’re doing a good job. You are loved. I love you.”

And I know it sounds like a cliche, but that part of me, that kid that was so afraid, feels that love. And then I can move on.

So no one came to save us when we needed it most. We really can save ourselves. I believe in you.

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[Jameela Jamil said,] “I said it wouldn’t be appropriate for me to take that role and they should find a brilliant deaf woman to play that role. I think you have to make those choices and not be too greedy and make space rather than take space.”
Jamil added: “I don’t want to be part of erasure.” Her comments come amid the ongoing debate over roles for minority groups in Hollywood.
However Cate Blanchett believes actors should be able to play any role, and said: “I will fight to the death for the right to suspend disbelief and play roles beyond my experience.”
Jamil said a “big change needs to happen” in the industry.
She said: “I think it’s a very tricky one. I can understand where people are coming from when it comes to suspending disbelief but I think the thing we should actually be fighting for is more roles for people with disabilities and more roles for LGBTQ so there aren’t just five a year and then those get taken by big names.

I love her.

Can we all just take a moment to appreciate Jameela Jamil? She is truly a wonderful person and she’s out there everyday proving we aren’t in the worst timeline.

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deadgodjess

Tahani is Jameela Jamil’s very first acting role. She’s hosted and modeled before, but this is her first role as an actress. She’s also a woman of color. She has less options than Cate Blanchett for a number of reasons. So for her to turn down a role because she felt it would be inappropriate speaks VOLUMES and should shame every a-list cis white star who’s taken a role that should have gone to a trans person or person of color.

We’ve got people who in theory should just be grateful for every job they get making ethical decisions about the roles they accept while people who never have to worry about when or how much their next job will be, who have secure careers, are saying ridiculous stuff to defend taking a job from marginalized people or roles that encourage the further marginalization of queer folks and poc.

And it’s not just this, Jameela is outspoken about every topic she believes in even when others would put their heads down to be more palatable.

She is straight up putting her reputation and career on the line every time she speaks up and I respect her so hard for it.

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stupid cats are valid

cats who aren’t graceful and thud to the ground like a bag of rocks are VALID

cats who run around the room and ram into the door are VALID

cats who get their claws stuck in things and meow at you to help them are VALID

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reblogged

my favorite mood is when i say i’m bored and someone’s like “just do something!” and then my brain feels like it’s lighting itself on fire

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As we approach the Holiday season, think about those less fortunate, and the what the reality of being less fortunate means for millions of American citizens (ie fellow humans) as laid out by the incomparable @seananmcguire 

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this has got to be THE funniest sentence ive seen all day im gonna cry

Me getting my name called to get my order at Starbucks

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