crying over a 27 year old man who can’t communicate, can’t drive and follows me on every other social media platform so I have to escape to tumblr to complain about it without him knowing…….. girls listen to me when I say men are just not worth it
more stories where falling in love is a horrifying fate worse than death rather than a source of comfort and hope. more stories where love is understood as a terminal affliction.
more stories where someone falls in love and understands that this means they will be changed and made more vulnerable by it, compelled to do irrational things in the name of it, and be willing to die for it, and starts lashing out and stress vomiting about it
LOVE IS A FEAST BUT YOU'VE LEARNED TO ABSTAIN; ON LONELINESS THAT EATS YOU ALIVE
Bob Schofield WIKIPEDIA ARTICLE ABOUT LOVE WITH PLENTY OF CITATIONS (via @masoeuretmoi) // Phoebe Bridgers Moon Song // Olivia Laing The Lonely City: Adventures in the Art of Being Alone // Xooang Choi (via @larameeee) // Fyodor Dostoevsky The Brothers Karamazov // Ocean Vuong Thanksgiving 2006
- I can’t get ahold of Mikey cause we had a fight. We had a bad fight. - What’s the matter with you, huh? He’s the only friend you have. - Not anymore. I did too much to him.”
Mikey and Nicky dir. Elaine May (1976)
frank bidart / this is not for tears, succession
Gregory Orr, from ‘Orpheus & Eurydice: A Lyric Sequence’
when I think of mutually assured destruction, I think of them, and I feel like crying
dedicated to all the loves you look back on with tears of rage
credits: Wuthering Heights by Kate Bush | all the film stills are from Wuthering Heights, 1939, starring Merle Oberon, and Laurence Olivier who was also there | Smother by Daughter | No Children by the Mountain Goats | art by Santiago Rustinol | I’d Rather Be With Them by Marika Hackman | No Children by the Mountain Goats again
the hand that feeds you
Succession (2019-) // Working for the Knife - Mitski // Dance Moms (2011-)
Simone de Beauvoir, from a letter to Jean-Paul Sartre (Paris, 21 February 1941)
musings on grief
Evan Knoll, Grave of the Fireflies, Stephen Dobyns, Pablo Neruda, Donte Collins, Vincent Van Gogh, Natalie Diaz, Hannah Lock, @metamorphesque , Anna Akhmatova, Ocean Vuong
buy me a coffee
Clarice Lispector, tr. by Johnny Lorenz, Um Sopro de Vida
I sure hope you didn’t do anything stupid, Jackie.
Jackie Brown (1997) dir. Quentin Tarantino
Special Agent Dale Cooper Giving People the Thumbs Up Appreciation Post
THE PIANO (1993) dir. Jane Campion
The end we have in sight is more than worth all the means
First Reformed (2017, Paul Schrader)
Nattvardsgästerna / Winter Light (1963, Ingmar Bergman)
Carmela soprano fancam is my Christmas gift this season