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eviction πΏ
I think as I get older the toughest pill to swallow is how much my family sucks. I donβt know why I try to force myself in places that Iβm clearly not wanted in. Iβm just sick of trying for people who clearly donβt have my best interests at heart. Im tired of being called needy or being told that they feel forced to hang out with me.
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No thoughts.
Only Jeane-Pierre Gibrat illustration of women.
I just hate how I canβt get over a person normally, like I always have to hate them when in actuality I donβt hate them I hate how they act. Like thereβs a guy I love that I donβt think he loves me back or he doesnβt love me back the same way and it hurts me and kills me so much on the inside because I canβt stand the thought of being without him. And heβs my best friend too thatβs the fucked up part. Like have you ever had nightmares of the person you love being with someone else? Itβs crazy and fucked up that even in my dreams he haunts me. And tonight he was being such an asshole to me and I donβt know why and I told him how I felt and he apologized because heβs stressed but I hate that Iβm at the point where Iβm starting to resent him because I donβt want to resent him I love him so much but I resent the fact that I can never be with him and I hate it so much it makes me want to die.
Maybe itβs because Iβm on my period and I havenβt taken my meds yet but everything just feels so meaningless. I feel like Iβve been going through so much and Iβm always there for everyone else but no oneβs there for me and I donβt know what to do. I donβt even think anyone would care if I died
I donβt remember the last time I felt so helpless but I kind of just want to die and start over
Who should I talk to if Iβm at the point in my life where Iβm ready to k*ll myself?
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