Expressions of a work in progress

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I got a new camera lens

I haven’t used it, nor am I all that excited about it currently. My general mood toward most of my endeavors as of late. I have taken some photos here and there, but nothing I can even recall. 

Life has been a rather giant ball of stress and frustration as of late. Work has been...where do I even begin? I’ve been as close as I’ve ever been to simply walking out of a job with nothing lined up, and I’ve been in that head space a multitude of times lately.

I’ve invested quite a bit of time into looking for something new, which is like having yet another job, one also filled with loads of frustration. With essentially nothing to show for it, other than a, “well, if the guy we hired instead doesn’t work out, maybe we’ll think about calling you.” That from someone that gushed about me and my resume. 

It has been about two weeks since I told my boss off. I absolutely laid into him, with language unfit for most ears. It didn’t feel good. The whole time I was actually measuring my words very carefully, and restraining myself from simply leaving and not looking back. It did make for a rather tense next two work days where he was visibly treading as light as can be around me, lest he invoke my wrath again. It was slightly amusing to me, only slightly though.

I decided I need to get away from everything and so I am. I’m leaving in a week for some much needed time away from life. I plan on meeting my Mom’s new dogs and spending ungodly amounts of time in record stores and probably teaching my Mom how to make kimchi fried rice. I’m also kind of hoping to actually sit down and read a book, or hell, maybe two. I’m driving out alone, and hoping my brain and I can do some serious thinking together, if not, lots of music will be listened to.

I hope you’re all well. I don’t know when I’ll be here in any sort of regular capacity. For now I’m simply a ship in the night passing by and saying hello.

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It’s as if we are constantly filling each others real or perceived voids in order to get them along to the next point in their life, then nothing more than a slow fading away of a once solid friendship/relationship.

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It’s been a busy last few weeks. Between working on the house and now a visit from family I haven’t felt like I’ve had the energy for much else. I’m good, and I say that confidently. I would be better if I had succeeded in kicking some bad habits I’ve also been working on, but I’m undeterred despite recent failures and struggles. I’m beginning to itch to take some new photos and that hasn’t been the case for months now. 

I know, in part, outside factors have pushed me to distract myself from myself quite often lately and I find I don’t have any sort of creative or social energy in those times, hence part of the reason for my recent absence from here. 

I’m getting back to whatever my fucked up normal is and I’m ready for it.

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Poking my head up from various projects around the house that have taken a considerable amount of my time as of late. More to come in the coming weeks as well, so I can't say how much I'll be around. I hope you are all doing well. I'll try to stop in and catch up a little when I can.

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