Got a new video up on my YouTube channel, this one is about a new digital CCG called Chronicle: RuneScape Legends. 

It’s going into open beta on Wednesday this week, be sure to check it out if you like these kinds of games. 

Every Videogame I love

This is for @morelikecrapitalism, I found the original video for that Star Wars thing. Some of it’s good, some isn’t as good, but hey. 

I can never decide if me caring a ton about how everyone around me feels about me is a good or a bad thing. I would have quit my job by now if I didn’t know my family would kill me for it. That’s probably??? good I guess.

I mean, it might be ok. And I’m glad people care about me. I’m just in a bad place. It’s so odd to me that I desperately want to go to school now. 

Ugh, I thought I was hired to do tech support, not be a salesman.

It’s becoming more and more apparent that this job is mostly a sales job. We have to sell to every person. All the managers push it really, really hard. They constantly talk about it. It’s blatantly given more importance than ACTUALLY HELPING THE CUSTOMER, and I hate it. 

I’m seriously, seriously considering not doing this very long and trying to go to school instead (U of U specifically, maybe try to get into their game dev program). Because I hate this. 

ALSO, I’m rather sick of living in Utah county and, while I love my roommates, I’m kinda sick of them as roommates. 

And I really, really want to go to school, I’ve started to realize. I love learning, I want to learn. I’m not sure how I could make this happen anytime soon, though. 

I’m just an angry, grumpy man right now. 

Also, I want to move to Canada. Fuck the US. 

Gotta post this here so my dad doesn’t see it :P

I’m really, really unsure about my new job. I don’t enjoy working in a call center environment. I don’t like how much they hound you to get your speed up. I don’t like how hard I have to push sales. I hate using phones. Yes, it pays well and has good benefits, but I hate it.

To be fair, given time, I’d probably get used to it, but I am pretty miserable at the moment. I don’t want to do this. 

What I WANT to do is spend a lot of time working on my video game ideas and especially working on YouTube content. But my anxiety and stress make that completely impossible. 

You give me 6 months to dedicate my time to that, and I will find some success, I swear. I just don’t have that kind of time :\

I can tell I’m really frustrating one of my room mates by sleeping on the chair in our living room, but I’m still scared to sleep in my own bed after I stopped breathing the one time while I was super sick.

 I’m way better now, but I’ve got this lump in my throat that won’t go away and it’s scaring me still. It’s almost certainly nothing (probably even caused by the anxiety itself), but it’s really causing an issue. 

But I feel really bad my room mate is really annoyed. I may try to sleep in my bed tonight but I’m not sure. 

It’s so silly that I’m almost 25 and I’m scared to sleep in my own bed :\

Check it out everybody, I made a thing! Today marks the launch of my YouTube channel, Mice and Men. (A channel @cepheid-variable-star and @morelikecrapitalism may be helping out with in the future)

It’s a quick impressions video for the game Mordheim: City of the Damned, a 3rd person tactical strategy game set in the Warhammer Fantasy universe, and a digital recreation of the Games Workshop miniatures game of the same name. 

Certainly not a perfect video, but it was fun to make something for once, and I look forward to many more videos and to improving at a content creator.